不要吃回头草

4 continuous litres of the slimy medical solution gulping down my oesphageous is getting me very sick. The 1st jar was okie. The 2nd one started to taste awful. The 3rd one made me feel unbearable. The 4th one nearly made me puke... yukes..

No meat, No veg, No fruits, No milk, No cereals for the past few days... and no food intake after 12 noon today. Finally tmr is the big time! Hopefully everything goes on smoothly :D

Today, I started to pack up my office room. Clearing my office reminds me of clearing my hostels, but the feelings I planted in are different. The memories of hostel was a fair mix of fun, laughters and hard work (studying). My office room reminded me of my struggles, fears, anxiety, exasperation, anger but also with some fun. I duno if i shld feel sad or happy leaving the company. I am not sure if I will be leaving as an elated winner or just a pathetic loser.

Nice talking to Jason - a not-so-close friend who used to get very upset over his break up with his gf of 5 yrs, 5 mths and 5 days. After abt 2 yrs, I am glad he is doing fine. From our ICQ conversations, I could see that he is much livelier, cheerful and energetic. When asked if he has the intention to win back his ex-gf's heart, his answer was a firm no.

I am impressed with his answer. Not so much on the decision he has made, but rather, he reminded me of one BS snr telling me " 不要吃回头草“。 She was advising me against the idea of retreiving back my resignation letter, although a large number of colleagues have tried very hard to dissuade me from leaving.

Working life is really tough. Nobody is there to plan and take charge of your life, once you are OUT from the university. Thats why i need a lot of self assurance and confidence.