Brother and his brothers

I seldom openly announce that i am happy, but i really feel happy tonight. Probably the happiness i have has exceeded the normal threshold, that I have to say it out tonite in my blog.

Today (or rather yday) was my brother's ROM. The day started disastrously, with a lot of resentments and arguements due to harsh speeches made on one another at home. Fortunately, the petty issues were kinda diluted after the ROM ceremony.

The fact is that I am never close to my own brother since young. Ever since we had a huge fight when i was abt 12 yr old, we didnt speak to each other for a very long time. And our r/s kinda got strained from then onwards, and we were NEVER close since then. Perhaps this explain why he has found many 'brothers' outside while i myself found many 'brothers' i called my own too.

Today, I get to see all his 'brothers' who were definitely more excited and happy over the occassion than this natural blood brother of his. And yes, i really envy him that he has this grp of close friends/brothers by his side to support him in life.

I joined my brother and his 'brothers' plus their galfrens for a karaoke session after the ROM. This is the first time i ever joined my brother with his friends in activities. And I realise most of his brothers carried themselves very well, and its obvious that they have been thru 大 场 面 in life, even though some of them are around my age - job ranging from technical engineers to sales engineers to young entrepeuners. They remind me of ppl like Ms Angie Monksfield and Kueh Soon Han (minus the sincerity part). Comparatively, the friends i have around me are really very different from his. My friends are generally more down-to-earth and conservative. But tat definitely doesn mean my friends are more inferior to his!

I suddenly feel like a frog in the well. I feel that at my age, i havent seen enough of the world. I am losing out a lot, esp after meeting up with some engin course mates and learnt abt their current lifestyle. But i am really glad for my brother's success in life. He has always been so lucky - The late Ven Hong Choon stroked his head when he bumped into him while running around at PKS as a toddler. Today at his ROM, BG George Yeo shook hands with him cos he happened to be around.