I am nOt the Victim

怎麼會這樣呢 在我對你毫無懷疑的時候 你告訴我你要離開我
怎麼會這樣呢 這樣赤裸裸連藉口都沒有 OH﹗原來誠實 是那麼傷人
再說感情也該有些線索 昨天你還那麼溫柔 誰會看得出你和她已經那麼久
當朋友看這段感情的時候 都覺得我是受害者
分手真的難受 哭了又能如何 我不要自己太軟弱
而當你看這段感情的時候 是否也覺得我是受害者
往事歷歷如昨 我付出那麼多 可憐的是你竟一無所有

The prev song has been removed cos it has received non-positive feedbacks. Nvtheless, its a nice song sang by A-sang (bean's ouxiang?). The current song is an old one - In my opinion, this song comprises nothing but whinings from a gal over her lost relationship. But the lyrics can be so true.

As suggested by the song title "Victim" (Love victim to be precise), the song wrote about this gal who is unable to accept the abrupt & sudden ending of her r/s. I guess in life, there are too many cases (not jus in bgr r/s) that changes take place so quickly that we are unable to accept them graciously. The end result is only suffering. Echoing what was written in bean's blog, sometimes thing are really too good to be true. While we were lost in our sensual (not juz sexual!) pleasures, we din realise they are often accompanied by sufferings behind. Quoted from one of Nale's forwarded email: Lust for sensual pleasures is like addicting to drug, you will never get enough of it.

A lighter note on this song is that the singer sang with realisation that there is no point crying over the past, and reminded herself to be strong. The ending is kinda nice but egoistic (haha): I may have given out a lot in the r/s, but you are the one who ended up with nothing.

Talking abt ego, I realise that my previous blog contents did not explain its title. The title was given as i have been feeling pretty egoistic lately. I told my frens that its due to the slight rise in attention i am getting from others these days tat has been feeding my ego.

Another interesting thing i realise is that I nv seem to 'run out' of chemistry with the newbies in NUSBS. Lately, there are more than a couple of juniors telling me that they feel a sense of connection with me, it may not be the precise words they used, but more or less along this line. While I am definitely honoured and glad that ppl are able to relate to me, I do have my reservations as well. Whatever they are, i should treasure everything around me now.