What a joke....

I see my life as if on a roller coaster ride. I was then still troubled with some personal affairs when I had to tackle my FYP. When the earlier problem was finally resolved, I have to deal with my family woes. Next coming up was the return of my health problems and when the waves at home were getting slightly more peaceful, I have to balance my personal well being after my loss of job.

I nv realise I am such a 'career-minded' person, or mabbe i am just too concerned with money. After handing in my resignation, I feel the stress and strain on my wallet. At the same time, I see my self confidence plunging to rock bottom. It has nv occured to me that having a job and possessing a specialized skill is so impt to my life. Indeed, I get to understand myself better after i quitted my job. Not having a gf is NOTHING to me but not having a job means a lot to me. I am no different from any other ppl, jus another typical money-driven / money-face guy.

Well, I had a fun time at work witnessing how words can be twisted around. Last week, my Human Resource Senior Manager announced in the Management Meeting this 'Gordon will be leaving us due to religious reason"....."Oh really? How old is he? He is married?" .... "I dun think so lah, he is still so young".

As i wasnt involved in the meeting, someone came asking me that later, and I couldnt help myself but burst out into tremendous laughters. I have ever told a staff that i hope to retire in a monastery during my old age, but i have nv told anyone tat i wanna quit this job due to tat. Probably my shaved head had given them that idea too, in addition to the numerous buddha posters, postcards and pictures i have pasted all over in my office room. But i have never tried to preach buddhism at my work place.

Few weeks ago, one equally ridiculous thing i heard myself was when a maintenance worker came into my office room and changed my light bulbs and asked " I heard from the workshop that you only take one meal per day... how u manage it?" Gosh, i must have told some ppl tat i take 8 precepts sometimes, and they thot i do it daily.

I am thankful that the ppl at my workplace have painted such a 'nice picture' of me before i leave for good, although shamefully, i definitely dun deserve such an 'honourable' image to them. I hope its not gonna affect my future employment when the subsq companies i applied were to call back my old company for reference.