Argh..... duno wat to say.

I was speeding along the CTE tunnel, looking at the neat rows of lights on the tunnel ceiling, accompanied by the great volume of cars whizzing past me.. i asked myself 'What the heck am i doing here on the expressway!?!?' Everything seems so aimless and directionless....

When I finally reached NUS after a long driving struggle, i asked myself again " Here i am back again, at this blxxdy campus.. why am i always appearing here!??!" Sometimes life can be so contradicting. The place that u like most can also be the one that you dun wish to be at ....

I once told a friend.. if you have any hideout or any fave hangouts that you love to chill yourself out... nv bring your most beloved one there with u. At least leave one final place for yourself, a place which only belong to yourself and no other people... This is because when the love is lost, at least you have some place to hide yourself, a place which will not remind u of the good old times u have spent with her/him, a place where u have no memory of being with him/her, a place which has yet been tainted by his/her presence.

My colleagues are really such nice ppl. My manager called me today and asked me which day have i fixed to be my last working day. He suggested that i shldnt clear my leave so that i can exchange them for money, esp since i havent found a job. I wonder what good karma or deeds i have done in my past life to deserve such a nice boss. . .and that makes me wanna leave my present job fast, to avoid getting myself more vulnerable each day.

My foreman also helped me drive my Partner for the compulsory VICOM inspection today. As he was wearing the ComfortDelGro uniform, the inspectors kinda 'close one eye' to my car and my car was given the PASS at double quick time. Another female colleague has also been buying me Yogurt ever since she knew I have digestive problems.

Its kinda scary when u think that you r gradually exhausting away the good karma u have accumulated. May i have the opportunities and chances to replenish them soon.