I am OUT

Its so hard to come to terms that I am no longer the owner of this office room. The name tag on the door will be removed soon, and someone else will be using this pc which i 'hugged' almost everyday.

Imagine besides my own bedroom, this must be the place which I spent the longest time in, or perhaps, even longer than the amt of time i spend in my bedroom everyday. Moments after i tendered my resignation 1 mth ago, I was so ready to clear up my desk, pull down all the buddha posters of the walls, tidy up my files, ready to pack up and leave. But weeks later which is today, I was actually not so mentally prepared to leave. In fact, I kept thinking that 'i will be back tmr'.

My boss was telling me that some more candidates will be coming for interview tmr to replace my post. I actually told him that i will help him keep a look out, only to discover many hrs later that I will not be reporting for work tmr. Argh... this shows that i wasnt really in the 'mood' of leaving, as i didn seem to have the idea that today shall be my last day.

I spent the last few hrs of today going round the company building, shaking hands and bidding farewell. It really took me quite a bit of effort as there are simply too many staffs at my workplace. As i need to return my office key at 530, i found out that i only got abt 5 min left to delete all the unnec documents in my PC, clear and destroy some emails and finally making a gracious exit from the room. Argh, i was really so unprepared and everything was so last minute... i din even have the chance to give a farewell kiss to my arm rest chair....

Such harsh facts are indeed difficult for me to stomach. I recalled a similar feeling while I was bathing at PGP few weeks ago (OWY's cluster). I was reminded of my last bath at my own PGP cluster toilet 5 yrs ago, as the very next day, i wud be chased out of my room as the semester has ended. I really thot OSA was so cruel, for giving us the hostel to stay for 1 sem, developed strong feelings for it, and then cruelly chasing us away when the sem ends. I was only yr 1 then.... Subsequently, I din really develop much feelings for my hostel rooms, except for the final one which is at Sheares Hall. Tat was really a wonderful hall.

Most of my colleagues were envious of me, not becos i have found a new job, but becos i will be taking a 10 day break from work before my new job starts. Perhaps to most students (including myself last time), having a 10 day break is really no big deal since the sch holidays is so long, but to a working adult, a 10 day break is jus as good as bringing u to the heavens.......

Once again, i am still not used to the fact that i am no longer part of ComfortDelGro...