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I was having a night snack session with a friend at ECP Mac. I visited the washroom, took a look at myself in the mirror, and realised that I look like a guy in his 30s...... A significant pot belly + a face that doesn elude any youthfulness + one hand holding a car key. Most imptly, in the midst of many youngsters crowing around at ECP, I feel like i am really in my 30s too, except for the fact that I do not have a stable career yet.

Sometimes, I find that most Singaporean youths are a pathetic lot. Cos they have so much burden to carry. Immediately upon uni graduation, they face unemployment + incur a huge debt (study loans) even before they started working. The living costs and expenses are so high, that we cannot afford to stop working or fall sick. Now i get a clearer pic on why Ven Yuan Fan left for monkhood during his 1st yr in NUS engin fac.

When i quitted my job without finding a new one, many ppl were shaking their heads expressing disapproval. But I am a person who emphasize on being focussed and dedicated in whatever I do. I see no point in getting things done half-plus-six, or being unsure and bummering around. Without a clear vision and direction, we are just wasting our time and life.

Right now, i am focussing on earning enough to feed my parents, and constantly upgrade myself to sustain my employability sufficiently long enough for survival in this cruel society. Unlike many of my frens whose parents are still earning and do not need their income, I feel that I am given the chance and opportunity to repay my parents earlier.