Sadhu to the FOC organisers!

On Friday evening, I was so excited when I left for work at my office, as i would be joining NUSBS FOC all the way from friday nite till sunday morning.

The 2nd nite was senior sharing. I have to admit that this session might seem boring, dull and meaningless to the jnrs to a certain extent. For instance, wat BeiJing shared were not what we could relate to except for Peihui, someone of his era. And what Jessy shared were probably only meaningful to me and a few others of the same era.

But what I found most touching was the thanksgiving part of the sharing. Shiongwei was thanked openly and repeatedly throughout the session, by me, Jessy and Jiahui, for his presence in our NUSBS days. Separately and individually, he has touched our lives and gave impactful effects to our campus life.

Also got a pleasant and meaningful surprise when I was mentioned 'indirectly' by a jnr for my effort in bringing him closer to NUSBS. I am not sure if thats supposed to be a form of gratitude, but most importantly, its the assurance that tells me what I have done for the past yrs have been meaningful and worthwhile. Its like small yet meaningful evaluation for myself.

Pls pardon me for saying this but I feel some of the remaining sharings pretty shallow and forceful. Probably some were too ego to show their gratitudes and share their feelings, while others were simply not in the right moods. But how often did we not hear abt the importance of showing our gratitudes to keep our own hearts and fire burning? Its not just for ourselves, but for others to feel.

As mentioned before by a snr in the prev FOCs, i noticed the same thing myself: During the initial setting up the camp, there wud always be some ppl who would hesitate to step forward and commit themselves to the plannings, even though they were approached repeatedly. BUT its only after the 'raw' periods were over and everything was more or less planned and settled down, u wud see them coming forward at the last stage to 'Join In' and share the fun, as if they were part of the planning team. Its the same every yr. .sigh. Ppl only wanna share the fruits and fun, seep in the atmosphere and enjoy the fellowships, but refuse to commit and put in much efforts.

I ended my FOC prematuredly. Have intended to stayed on after the finale night to enjoy myself for the one last time in campus, but throughout the day something/someone kept trigger me off to anger up and break my forth precepts. Fearing of unable to control myself further, I decided to go home to prevent gaining more bad karma, and also to help reduce others from gaining bad karma.

Thanks to Jiahui and Eunice for their wonderful efforts to keep the society going. Also thankful to their comms and the OGLs for taking up their respective roles. I have to disagree with what BeiJing said abt the egoisticity of ppl who think they are very impt to the fate of the society. Becos the camp was small, you ppl have become even MORE noble, important and crucial to step forward and keep the society going, sadhu!