Getting Skeptical

Made my way to attend the Dharma talk just now, thanks to smallbro Ong for informing me abt it. I really appreciate the effort and recognise it as a form of spiritual support.

The talk was given by Ajahn Sujato, a teacher whom i have never heard or met before. I find the talk pretty light heartening, esp with Ajahn very humerous and jovious. However, I was a bit worried for some NUSBS newbies as many pali terms were used jus now. Hope that they will not be turned off by their first few Dharma talks. Nvtheless, the Q&A session was fun and easy to understand. I am glad that I did pick up some useful pointers from the short talk.

However, I have to constantly remind myself not to get too skeptical and judgemental towards the sangha community. There's this fear within me that I will, esp when those following the bodhisattva paths are not even supposed to harbour ill or unwholesome thoughts for the sangha.

Sometimes, u'll nv know immediately how impactful some incidents are to u, but they only surface when u get to encounter something similar as the days go by. I hope my judgemental attitude towards the sangha will cease soon... its jus going to disrupt and disturb my cultivation.