Show Hand

Shortly after i joined NUSBS FOC2000, i was given the nick "Show-Hand" by a BS snr, for my frankness in voicing out my opinions and sharing my personal problems. But dun get me wrong, I still keep some secrets for myself, just that i share relatively much more than most others do. I am going to share something tonite.

Those who know me well would know I have this very troubling matter keeping at heart for quite some time. Initially I only shared with 2 ppl, and now the number grew to more than 5. While I feel its bad of me to go round telling ppl abt the matter, I thought its gonna drive me crazy if i were to continue to keep it mum. I just need some friends to share and release out the unpleasantness in me. I am indeed thankful to those few whom i have shared :) Latest update: No action has been/will be taken in the near future cos the VIP is not around till late this yr :(

Now let me share another case on betrayal by a friend. There was this close friend who wanted to borrow 2K from me on the pretext of needing it for 'urgent matters'. When I asked her for the precise reasons, she said it was inconvenient to tell me, saying its for family matters. She also struck me hard on my weak spot by shooting me a qn "Dun u trust me?"

In the end, I lent her the money after some pleadings from her. I actually borrowed the money from another friend, who transfered his money from his account to hers using the online system, unconditionally. Thats the trust the other friend has for me, as he doesn even know her. And yeps, she returned me the money shortly.

After the incident, she kept asking me out for a meal, saying tat she wanna thank me for lending her the money. Of cos i feel great helping a friend, and was more than happy to accept her invitation. Everything was fine except for the fact that she wanted to meet me for meals at a certain place, which I dun think have any good food. I tried to persuade her to meet up at another place, but she insisted in meeting me at the place she suggested.

Our appointment was a sunday and when i asked her abt the job, she told me she was just helping around the company with the general stuffs, with no particular job scope. I asked her why she need to work on sunday, and she told me the ppl at her work place are so nice that they dun mind coming back on sunday to work. *Puzzled*

Coincidentally or pre-planned (i duno), we met one of her friends at the coffeeshop. This guy (from china) kept psychoing me tat i am not earning enough and shld come out to earn more money when i am young. I told him my monthly pay is actually more than an average graduate and I am very satisfied with it. He showed me a BMW parked by the road side and told me it belongs to his friend who is only 28 yr old. I wanted to tell him I have been driving mercedes benz E300 everyday to sch since i got my driving license but i din. He told me the importance of money in life and I told him the importance of morality in life. In the end, he gave up and I could more or less guess she is trying to rob me into MLM.

Just then, my hp beeped with an incoming msg: "Hey, do u think i shld still ask him to go up?" by XXX (my gal fren). My goodness! After seeing how defensive i was, my poor fren has actually wanted to SMS tat China fren, seeking his opinion whether she shld still bring me up to her company, but she ended up SMS me. Thats really too bad for her, and i was heartbroken.

Being my usual self, I spoke my mind and told her how I felt. I told her that it takes a v long time and much effort to build a friendship, but all it needs is one short moment of greed to destroy the entire friendship. She was apologetic, and promised not to do it again. I trusted her once more, and forgave her.

But to my disappointment, she continued with her doings, using the same techniques and methods, and approached several more of our common friends. Most of them were tricked, thinking how nice of her to invite us out for lunch, but all ended up visiting the MLM company. Just like me, they were disappointed and felt cheated.

Sorry to those who think I shldnt pen such things down in my blog. But this is my blog, i feel i have the right to do so and its supposed to be a channel for me to release all my unhappiness. It also serves as a form of warning : If next time soneone ask u to go and have lunch at some funny places, pls be on guard.