I was feeling blissful this evening until my dad came to tell me something which erased away all those nice feelings. Once again, he needs to use my van for both this weekend and next, which means I cannot use it for both my convo photo taking sessions which take place this weekend and the next.
Anyway, lets get back to the blissful feeling I had earlier on. Its came so strangely that I cant understand myself either. I feel happy that my dear friend, my smallbro zeathereal is able to fufil his wish once again. Its just a happy feeling within me that one of my spiritual friends has once again going to take a major step forward in life for his cultivation. Is this call mudita?
I have to admit i used to get jealous when I see many of my friends having the chance to attend retreats, but I cant. The idea of 'self' was so strong that I asked myself: Shldnt I feel happy for other ppl's acheivements? I know it sounds too noble to be true, but its something i get to appreciate lately. We are joyous to learn the Dharma taught by the buddha, we are not jealous of him. Similarly, we shld be joyous with our friends' achievements.
This evening, went with bean, zea and Owy to watch Xiao Gang's concert. Dun ask me where I get those tics, but my dad always have some lobangs in getting concert tics and annual NDP tics. The concert started off very boring, but it got better towards the end. Still, I feel that it didnt appear like a 'yan chang hui' but more like a 'ge chang hui'. Its either Xiao Gang doesn have good stage performance or I am really not into concerts :P
Tmr have to work, and smallbro zea is pushing me to sleep :D
Saturday, July 10, 2004
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