Commencement Commencing Soon...

My 'Big Day' will be approaching in a few hours' time. Am I supposed to sleep early so that I will look better in photo takings tmr? Since its such a 'big day', shldnt I be feeling very excited and happy?

The answer is a BIG "NO". Initially i thot the date is still far away, thats why i din have the excited feeling. But now, the ceremony is jus few hrs away, and i am feeling even more sian with it. I do know of some friends who are very excited over their commencement, as they see it as the 'Final Day' of their education life. "I have waited for today for so long, finally its here!"

I forced myself to make some reflections why I am not feeling great abt the graduation ceremony. I guess I have the answer. While others see graduation as the final product of their education and value it greatly, I see the process of learning and experiencing throughout the 4 yrs as much more meaningful and valuable than the end product, which is my honours degree. I have enjoyed myself much for the past four yrs, so there is actually nothing great for me to anticipate or wait for after the 4yrs. Whatever I have taken with me have been taken, the commencement is more of a 'ritual' or 'custom' that i am taking tmr.

While many of my friend have been inviting their friends and jnrs for photo takings after the ceremony, I did not send out a single proper invitation. Of cos i would be more than happy if my jnrs will come take photos with me, and in my heart i am hoping they will take the initiative to do so, but I doubt so. Anyway no expectation... i admit i am just plain sian and too lazy to send out invitations.

Oh yes, just now i was at Sentosa attending NTUBS FOC finale night. Its not the first time i attended their activities, but its the first Camp Nirvana that I went. Too bad the NUSBS jnrs missed out the fun as they left early, the singing session was indeed very heart warming, as it effectively gel up the society. I guess thats the NTUBS style, no hard energetic hard rocking dance steps, but light and simple swaying motions... its nice, really nice... i have to take my hat off for weipin for joining CNS2004. I think we have some similarities - we really like to try out, participate and get involved in different new things instead of just staying at one old place/grp. Its parallel to my mentality and wish of getting exposed to different teachings of buddhism.

Hahaha, the wayang commencement will be approaching soon, and it shld be over soon ... lets move on with life and look forward to new challenges, yeah!