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1) Pic with Jane, capturing our convo suits in vain
2) Current BS leaders practising their dances for FOC, SADHU!

I was feeling very excited throughout yday at work, as I would be going down to NUS in the evening. Not that I was excited over collecting my convo gown, but I really miss the campus atmosphere.

Met up with Jane and gang at MPSH to try out our gowns and motar boards. I duno how the others felt, but I know I am not looking forward to commencement. I dun have any special feeling over my graduation, and I dun feel great wearing my convo suits. Perhaps in my opinion commencement is something too 'Academic', and I really dun feel a great sense of acheivement having obtained my honours degree.

Probably my heart hasnt been fully put into my studies throughout the 4yrs. Its true I did work hard for my exams, but most of the time I did my work with minimum effort hoping to acheive the minimum acceptable grades. Pls pardon me if you find me cocky, but i am sincerely telling you the truths. My heart was not there when I did my labs, FYPs etc. I only studied for the sake of my grades. Thats probably why I dun feel much for my honours degree, though I cant deny the fact I NEED it to survive.

On the contrary, I have spent a large part of my campus life in ECAs and hostel/hall activities. Every hols was spent preparing for BS stuffs, and most of the evenings after lectures were spent eating dinner, talking cok and interacting with my neighbours. Everyday, its practically waking up in the morn, go for lessons, lunch with course mates, lessons again, swim (if possible), back to room, dinner with neighbours, nite joggings, if not supper or other BS activities and then back to sleep. That completes a day of my campus life...for almost the past 4 yrs.

Last evening, I headed towards SRC. I miss those nights when I was staying in Ext A, and would jus cross the road and jog round the SRC tracks. I would sit near the chin up bars, looking at the cars speeding past the expressway, feeling very protected and sheltered as a student. I knew life is going to be tough outside. Its also a nice place to spend alone during my depressing nights, the most depressing moments of my nus life.

I walked past the tennis courts and saw a few orientation grps conducting night games. Saw some guys being blind folded, and reminded of myself being blind folded too 4 yrs ago, haha. How exciting were the days as a camp participant, feeling the team spirits, and constantly flipping the program booklet wondering whats gonna happen next....

As I was driving along Science Link, realising myself dressed in executive suits, its still quite hard to accept the fact that I am no longer part of NUS, part of this lovely campus. I have spent my days and nights here, and can u imagine how much i miss the place. Perhaps I have started work too soon, that the transition period i am experiencing now seems to be extraordinary long.

But dun get me wrong, I am not yearning for a student life. I just miss the days as an undergraduate but I know life has to move on. I always miss a place more than the people. But I think I am doing fine now :)