So weak So incapable

I think i am so weak and incapable. Yday, i was feeling very cheerful but today i feel heavy. Its not something unexpected though.

I choose this present job becos i want a job that can deal with ppl. I thot i will enjoy dealing and helping ppl, but ended up 'dealing with ppl' becomes the nightmare of my job. I have to deal with taxi-drivers. Its not the hassle that i am worried abt, but i find myself implanting too much emotions in my job. Today, i had my first experience to deal with a taxi driver who complained to me abt money matters with the workshop.

Although the conversation with him was far from getting heated, I worried a lot for myself as I tend to side the taxi drivers more than siding my company. I found myself sympathising ppl very easily, even though they may be lying to me. Am i not suitable for this job? Well, this is jus a v small part of my job scope though. But i am sure its going to be useful for my career, a long long way to go.

I learnt that my company organisation is really big, ranking 5th in the world transport industry. There is also much mobility in between the organisational groups, not jus engineering. But alas, i am not ambitious, haha, i dun have the calibre also.

I sincerely thank my friends, esp the buddhist friends + Jane for encouraging me in my new found job. All of u have given me much spiritual support.