More Politics on the way........

You may have often heard of office politics, but i spent only 50% of my working time in my office, and another 50% running about the workshop. So do I really face 50% less of office politics? The ans is NO. There are politics everywhere....

Today, I was introduced to this senior technician, call him Mr J. Mr J was very nice to me and together, we took a cab and visited another workshop at the other end of the singapore. Throughout the journey, he taught me on the taxi meter system, the components within, the technology and system used by different taxi companies. He even taught me how to differentiate between meter counts by time and distance covered ie. which type of cabs is cheaper lah...

Sad to say, he began to pour out his woes to me, complaining this and that personnel at our workplace. He told me many negative aspects of the workshop. Unlike Mr B who had ulterior motives in telling me all these, i seriously believe Mr J was sincerely voicing out his displeasures.

I wasnt affected much by the negative things he told me, but am worried for myself in another aspect. How am i going to handle all these snr technicians next time? They are all very nice to me now, treating me like their son, always buying me drinks. But v soon, i will need to order them to do work, very often against their wish. I really feel stressed and pressurized, drawing a line between establishing good relationships with them and getting them to do work. How can i learn to be more diplomatic? That will be wearing different masks at work, breaking more of the 4th precepts.

Anyway, I am tasked to write minutes for tmr's meetings. Not that i do not have experience writing minutes, but the contents of the meeting tmr will be very very very foreign to me. All these technicals terms and such, i wonder how i am going to do it, and the minutes shld be forwarded to the GM and CEO... :(

Money is really so hard to earn. Today, i visited another branch and i was told by the executive there that the HQ took so long (6 mths) to look for 'me' as the suitable candidate. I really wonder wat they see in me to have chosen me. Seriously speaking, i think they have placed the wrong bet. I hav nv seen myself as a competent person, becos i dun see the need to be the top. But they want someone who is competitive and outstanding. With such a good pay and much incentives given to me, i really feel the need to push myself further, not so much of proving myself as capable, but to 'repay' them back. Perhaps i am now bearing the karmic effect of the 4th precepts which i broke during the interview session.

The tasks and responsibilites are really getting heavier each day, and i admit i am feeling stressful, one of the v few times i openly admit defeat.

Finally its friday tmr, and although each day seems very short to me, i dun really look foward to go to work each day... probably i am still in a discomfort zone.... sometimes, i really wish to change myself into the coverall uniform, take the spanner, and crawl underneath the vehicle to do work.

An analogy wud be : When i was studying for exams, how i wish i can be in the temple having retreats, meditating and chanting whole day long. But when i was midway in the retreat, i wud wish to give up the 'monastic life' and get back to the society, sleep on my nice bed, bathe in the nice and clean bathroom + eat good food. Life is so ironic.....