Monday Blues

Tmr is monday again... awww :( I am dreading work, i am dragging my feet to work everyday, i dun like to work.. i want to be a student.

Oh no, its only the first week, and i m already like that. How am i going to survive in the working force for the rest of my life? I duno.. mabbe i am lazy, mabbe i dun like to be in a discomfort zone, mabbe i am too pampered and dun like changes, but this is life. I hope to settle down fast to find out the reasons behind my negative feelings. Hopefully its nothing much to do with the nature of the job, cos firstly, i love to be in a service industry and talk to ppl.. this job is supposed to be ideal wat.

Today went to PKS, and its like a massive buddhist community gathering. Few hundreds of volunteers were present for the general briefings.. saw many NTUBS members, including Kin Song, Ai Kit and several new faces. As for NUSBS side, we only have old birds (yeah, very very very old birds i must say) + 2 current members kat and OWY. Glad that everyone is one way or another involved in the coming vesak, and not jus a buddhist by name and doing nothing on the big day. Have managed to pull in my xiaomei to partner with me for the Vesak temple tour guide work.

The heat wave is getting stronger, sweating in my rooms after doing some pull ups. Dun dare to try push-ups cos i will be drenched definitely, haha.

Oh yes, i forgot to thank Francis for giving me much encouragement and assurance that i will do my job well. Thanks to others who feel i can do the job, but seriously speaking, i am far from wat most of u think i am that capable. I am actually quite a sub-standard worker....

Hope to get my motivation back in my career. As for the Dharma, i really see the limit in how much a typical singaporean can acheive, unless like wat Sayalay said, join her in Myammar forever.