A Routined, Disciplined or Dead Life?

Few nights ago, Hong Leong Finance called us up to rush us paying up for the next car payment. We do not wish to pay, so we r prepared to see the car being towed away anytime.

Many friends have wondered why we are still keeping the car. The reason is because the car is registered under my dad's company name, and hence my dad doesn have the full rights to sell it. However, the estranged shareholder of my dad's company has refused to pay for the car, so the finance company is coming after my dad who is the gurantor for the car loan. We cant sell yet we are answerable for the loans... sighz.

I did some calculations on how i shld split up my pay. After deducting my CPFs, i shld be giving around 2K to my parents for the time being, leaving the remains for my daily expenses. I have to spend very wisely.

I always claim i dun like watching movies, partially becos i find it antagonising with meditation/developing concentration (as what sayalay always nag us against watching tvs and films). The other reason is becos of the $ factor. I am often more willing to spend on food than on movies, concerts or games. Oh well, I am a youngster too, i am often fascinated by the movie effects and captivated by those intriguing story lines... I also wish I can enjoy some good movies with frens, but $ is the problem. So i duno how i shld take it when I turned down ppl's invitation for a movie and they replied with an 'as expected'. I dun seek and need their understanding in my difficulties, but its definitely something I find extremely uncomfortable abt.

My parents asked me abt the meditation sitting tmr at BL. I told them that I wun be free to accompany them as I have duty at PKS Vesak Celebration. Futhermore, I think BL will have their own special celebration for vesak tmr so the usual sitting shld be cancelled. I told them tat BL is in huge debts and my dad asked me why i nv approach him for donations during his more 'well-to-do' days. As a businessman, making donations is really a norm to him, and they express their wish to make some small donations during their next visit to BL. Sadhu :D

Read a friend's blog on ppl failing to understand him. Well, its has nv occured to me that I need ppl to understand me much, cos firstly i dun need that and secondly its impossible to find or get ppl to understand me. I guess this applies to many other ppl as well.

Oh I would like to make an early wish to my smallbro Ong Wei Yang. Happy Birthday to you! May you practise the Dharma diligently :D Sorry didnt have time to get u a present yet.