Not again, hopefully...

When I first started work, there is this lady, a graduate from NUS too, who took very good care of me. She would give me tips on surviving in the company, assist me in the SAP program and helped me settle on several complicated issues. On top of that, she would often buy me breakfast and after meal deserts.

1) Last X'mas, she bought me a wallet cos I kept complaining that my wallet was torn.

2) 3 days later, the eve of my eye lasik operation, she bought me a v cute soft toy hugging the words 'ping an'.

3) Early this yr, she bought me a pair of ear studs, cos she said they look nice on guys.

4) When I had my car accident 3 weeks ago, she bought me a kogepan soft toy cum car accessory, to beautify my 'injured' partner (and cos she knew i like kogepan).

5) Lastly, she bought me a silver chain + black stone (or crystal?), supposed to ward of evil spirits cos I told her i have been sighting beings again.

Last evening, she called me, requesting for some listening ears. Apparently, she has some problems with her ex-bf. I drove her to Changi Airport, supposed to eat ice cream, but ended up talking rubbish at Burger King. This evening, she called again, asking me to eat ice-cream, since we didnt manage to eat the day before. I was hesistant, as I feel its not right to go out so often with her, esp she is not my gf. And most imptly, i din want the 'same thing' to happen again to me. I kindly rejected her by saying i am tired.

However few hrs later, she called me again, and she told me was waiting at my void deck, asking me to come down. I din want my neighbours or my family to see, so i drove her to bedok reservoir, sat by the waters, to eat the ice-cream she bought. The ambience was supposed to be very romantic, peaceful, fresh air and nice breeze. But no, the feeling wasnt there. I tried my best to avoid discussing on the topic of 'love'. I may be escaping, or perhaps I was just being over sensitive. Whatever the case, I dun care, I just dun wish to get myself involved in love.

She is different from the previous gals I met. She is really a nice gal, and definitely not as irritating as some of them. Besides on the push factors from my religion, I know I can NEVER be a good bf. Love will make me a selfish person, a demanding one and an unreasonable one. I do not wish give myself more sufferings, jus as much as I do not wish to add on more sufferings to the life of others.

She just told me on MSN a few seconds ago as I was typing this blog: Next time, dun anyhow sing to gals who are moody, if not you will have to worry abt them falling in love with you. G D M......!