Porcupine under the Shade

I came out from my bath and notice missed call on my hp. I called back, and realise its one of my EVC friends, asking me why am i not at ECP blading with them.
I am very glad and touched by their nice gestures to include me as one of them, as i have not expected them to wait for me (cos i only joined them once).

To be frank, i did have a few past experiences that i find it hard as a new-comer to blend into an existing group of friends. My first experience was in CACS (my 2nd ECA in NUS). The ironic fact was that i felt very welcomed when i first joined the ECA, with my snrs all very friendly and approachable. Moreover, most of us were staying in the newly built PGP, andwe did have a fun and havoc time spent together. Unfortunately, most of these snrs were in their graduating yrs, and they became significantly less active the followng yr.

The ECA was then dominated mostly by freshies the following yr. Initially, I thot i would have a fun time knowing the newbies, but i missed their orientation session (due to clash with BS activities i think). And this miss proved to be the turning pt for my fate in this eca. During the subsq ECA sessions, I found it v tough to blend in with the freshies, esp after they have been out together in several outings which further fostered their new found frenship. As my days in BS got busier, i slowly drifted away from CACS and this 2nd ECA soon became a history for me

The 2nd experience i had was during my final sem in NUS. I happily shifted in to Sheares Hall on the 2nd week of sem2 yr4. Hall ppl were really much more friendlier and sociable than hostelites. I have gals knocking on my door to do self-intro, and also blk mates saying hi to me whenever they walked past my room. Ppl in the canteen wud take the initiative to come talking to you . However, they are doing all these becos they thot u r a newbie. Despite the fact that they try to make u feel welcomed, i realise i can never FEEL or be part of them. The friendships and bonds built up among them was already far too strong - the hall spirit.

Anyway, I nv like the idea of forming cliques, and was nv part of any particular grp or clique in sch. I once told my friend: If you wanna put it nicely, you can say i mix well with all ppl. If u wanna make it sound ugly, you can say i am Anti-Social ;D Whatever the case, i know its not easy to be my friend.