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I received an apology email from a friend not long ago. In the email, my friend apologised for not being able provide me with support as much as I could to her as a fren. She said that whenever she is depressed or sad, I will be able to cheer her up with either my lame jokes or meaningful 'advices'. On the other hand whenever I am depressed or down, she would only make the matter worse. Despite her good intention and effort, i often ended up feeling more frustrated and vexed.

Frankly speaking, I am very afraid of receiving such emails from friends. I do not know what to say or how to reply. Perhaps friends who know me better will know that whenever i feel frustrated or depressed, I wud ignore everything/everyone and prefer to be kept alone. However, such reactions are sometimes mistakened as ' I am angry with the other party'. Of cos there are also times that i love to complain and vent my frustrations to my friends, depending on which type of issues.

I am seriously a very individualistic person. I do not think I can live closely with others. I do not want my life to be dependent on others and vice-versa. I do not like to carry the 'burden' of knowing someone is upset, excited, happy or disappointed becos of me.