What type of person I am

Sometimes I really wonder what role or character am i playing to my friends. While I strongly believe I do possess multiple selfs, I dun exactly call it split personality. I will not be surprised tat if 2 of my friends were to describe me, the descriptions wud be so different that a 3rd party wud thot as if they were describing 2 different persons.

Perhaps to some friends, I am a kind-hearted, helpful and reliable friend who is good in giving advices and suggestions. To another grp, I may be some critical fellow, who loves to give negative comments, criticisms and unpleasant remarks. While to the 3rd grp, I may be a cynical or eccentric fellow, someone deep and v hard to understand out there. In other words, the Om you know may not be the Om his other friends know.

I remembered when i was in the army, we often need to do peer appraisals, and one section wud be on 'popularity' (which is based how much we honour integrity, helpfulness , team work + cooperativeness etc). When i was in the BMT, i was somehow ranked somewhere in the middle among my platoon of 40+ ppl. When i moved on to SISPEC, i was actually quite honoured to be ranked 2nd! (i nv thot ppl like me so much then, heh heh!). But when i moved on further to the Specialist Training course, i was ranked last 3rd among my platoon of 18 ppl.

When I was in JC, the gals in my glass hated me to the core and wrote me hate mail - cos they said i always disturb them. But after leaving jc for so many yrs, i became one of the very few guys who remain close with them. They told me abt a month ago tat when they read the 'testimonials' left on my friendster, they thought they have gotten the 'wrong' Gordon!!! wahahah... but once again, i repeat tat comments left on friendsters are ALL overly rated.

So which is my real self? No doubt i see myself growing up and changing quite a lot over the years, I have nv bothered to fake myself in front of my friends - and i can truthfully say that i always present my most genuine and sincere self to my friends. But how you wish to interpret me is ...err.. your own business, yeah?

I know i have been irritating to some ppl ( and i apologise for it). But to other friends who have really appreciated me as a good friend, i thank you for giving me the chance.