Lowest Point of my Life

I know its exaggerating to say its now the lowest point of my entire life - but it is indeed very low and i am feeling lousy.

I took my IPPT test just now, passed all my static stations comfortably but failed my 2.4km run by 6 seconds. I struggled together with my friend for all 6 rounds but he managed to make a dash during the last few metre. He passed by a few seconds, and left me to fail by a few seconds : ( I suddenly recalled the countless no. of times that we had taken our own initiatives to go for trainings together over the past few mths, be it at NUS or East Coast Park. I was always the stronger runner, but not for today. Arghh.. i feel so alone now .. i m left to train alone . . sob sob sob.

My work is shit. Yes, notice the term i used for my job has been degrading again and again. I duno when is this torture going to end. I told my friend tat this shitty feeling will only end on the day when either:

1) Most of the shits are finally resolved, and i can have a good time relaxing
2) I got immuned to all the shits, i will no longer be so affected by them
3) I quit

Option 3 is kinda out, not so much of becos i need the job and money badly but rather, I dun wanna add a 'failing' mark in my career history. Giving up makes me a loser. SO far, i havent been much a loser in my life, except for my physical fitness...

I feel i am having a v tough job. But that does not mean my company is a bad place to work in, cos most of my colleagues are having good time enjoying life, although complaints can be heard every now and then. And yes, they took pity of me cos of the job scope i am taking. An observant colleague also noticed tat i have been yawning a lot lately, which is contrary to his impression of me as someone who is often very awake, alert and virbant.

Arghh.. it sux. The feeling sux....