THe reaL WorLD

I didnt feel like blogging tonite until i read a fren's fren's blog... somehow giving me the little motivation to write.

My day started off well in the morning, and it became even better later in the aftn. Unfortunately, my evening turned out to be a horrid after my Dept Manager ( an authoratative lady) summoned me to her desk regarding some issues i was in charged off. Apparently, my 'newbie' title has been strucked off by her as she no longer regards me as a every-thing-also-duno new guy. She demanded a very last minute report from me, and i was momentarily frantic....

And it didnt help when my team mate at work tried to push more issues for me to handle. I tried to curb my own emotion, esp under the strong influences of several colleagues who didnt have v good impression of him and sometimes spoke ill of him. I guess keeping quiet (and inevitably showing the black face) is so far my natural reaction towards him. I hope there will nv be a day tat i will throw my temper at him - peace

This evening while i was driving, I received a thank you SMS from one of the meditation workshop participants, who was v touched by the effort and hardwork NUSBSA has put up. I was reminded of last evening, when almost every of the participants put his/her palms together and thank us for organising the workshop, while they took their exit from the meditation hall.

But the contrast is felt. The buddhist community is sometimes just too 'nice', 'ideal' and 'perfect' to be true. The ugly fact is tat the outside world (working society) is the exact opposite. But tats the real world, isnt it?