Cruel Statement & Eyes Retreat

A friend received this warning: "Do not talk so much to gordon on xxxx stuffs as he is v good and have his way of making ppl share things with him." How would you feel, especially if such words came from someone who was very close to you?

Though its beyond words that i can describe how offensive and hurt I felt upon hearing, I noticed that this friend has failed to apply the warning to himself, that eventually wat he said to other ppl still came to me afterall. Sometimes, all the passion and good intentions from someone can just be mercilessly killed by a silly statement like this. It jus demotivates u and kill ur passion in providing further helps.

Well, i am indeed honoured that ppl wish to share with me, and they are still doing so now. The most funny thing was a NUSBS freshman (someone i know from DC) actually msged me and asked abt the location of Sutta Studies on monday. I wud have expected him to contact friends he made from Dharma Camp instead.

This afternoon I read Songgechan's msn nick and gave it a good laugh, translated as "Finally I can see clearly!". Purportedly, he has broken his glasses during his retreat. Me too, had broken 2 different pairs of specs at 2 different retreats.
Having done lasik, I have something new to share:

No doubt LASIK has given me much convenience and a refreshing feeling, I do experiecne the downside of it. Believe it or not, i actually missed the old days of having the 'blur vision'. I am already so used to the blur vision that it seems to be the default state of my eyes. It has already been drilled in me that at the end of the day, my eyes must get back to its 'original state' of blurness.

In the past, I have the freedom of controlling whether i wanna have a 'clear' or 'blur' vision, simply by putting on and removing my glasses. But now, I have no chance of giving my eyes a 'retreat', haha!

I think thats another form of undesirable attachment..... still fighting hard to recover from the cruel statement.