Welcome back to Clubbing

I m back to clubbing, and i nv expect it to be so enjoyable after so many yrs.

My most crazy clubbing days were during my army time, when my camp mates and I would head down to Zouk and Venom quite often for drinking and dancing. I always know I am a 'drinking' material as i was able to gulp down several mugs of beer with very little effects. I did enjoy the feeling of being 'high' in a semi-drunken state, whereby i could laugh and talk aloud, but i was always conscious enough to make my way back to camp/home.

I have stopped drinking ever since i got in touch with buddhism, but i broke my 5th precept last evening by drinking again. Shame to say, i was never really tempted all these yrs (not even during my bro's wedding), but i jus gave in last evening and took down several glass of hard liquors. The only thing that i probably didnt pick up last evening was smoking.

2 evenings ago, i decided to go down to a regular neighbourhood barber shop to have my hair cut. I have been patronising this barber shop since my secondary sch days except during the few yrs of PGP stay. While i was walking towards the shop, i sensed something amiss as it was not lighted up. Upon walking near, i found that the shop totally empty! All the furnitures are gone. I stood there in disbelief and refused to leave for a while. For a moment, i was lost, and wonder where i shld go to have my haircut in the future. Over the yrs, i nv need to make any plans on where to have my haircut and would automatically head towards this barber shop whenever i feel the need to cut my hair.

This situation kinda reflects a little bit of my life and character too. Sometimes, we have taken certain things for granted and never expect it to happen on us. Jus like many cancer patients love to say " oh, i nv thought i will have cancer, i nv expect that it will happen to me!". I also have my version of saying " Yes, i also nv expect such a love disaster will happen on me........."