Broken Branch , Broken Heart

These 2 pictures were taken at the same place but 8 mths apart. The same tree may still be there, but is now suffering from a broken branch. It depicts my heart - which was once filled with hopes and happiness, but now a shattered broken one.

Many of my friends know that i love to visit places of nature. Macritchie, Seletar and the Pierce reservoirs are my fave hideout. Whenever i feel stressed or depress, i will visit these places alone. I always feel revitalized after visiting these places which i called my own - where i feel connected to the world. Another place which i go even more often is none other than east coast park - skating along the coastline enjoying the breeze must be one of my fave past-time to enjoy the peaceful night.

A few friends learnt about my broken r/s and suggested that visiting these places may help to make me feel better. The unfortunate fact is that you tend to share your most treasured and fave stuffs with your most beloved ones. Yes, i brought her to all these places when I was very much in love with her. Now, i cant even go to these places as they are all now terribly tainted by images of her. Recalling the good old times we had together at these places brought me tremendous heartaches and painful memories. Not even my fave ECP is spared.

A painful lesson learnt - Always reserve something exclusively to yourself. Do not share them all...

Now, i finally understand what my friend meant, when she told me re-visiting some of the places which she used to hang out with her ex-bf brought her fears and pains. Yes, its a combination of FEARS and PAINS.

And yeps, i also get to understand why people commit suicide - not because they find life meaningless or they dun love themselves, but rather, life must be so painful and miserable for them to endure. Its nv my option though.

And i also understand why ppl say that NEVER to listen to sad ballads when you are out of love. Every song seems to remind you of your broken r/s , every song is like perfectly tailored to your predicament, and you find most lyrics describing about your feelings. And it doesn taken long after listening, that you realise sadness steadily creeping into your heart, and tears flowing down your cheeks.

I realise most human beings are the same. What i have experienced are what many of my friends have experienced. Yeps, i do feel more connected to the world now...