Using the Heart

I think one of my greatest flaws in lif e is impatience. I want everything to be instant, fast and immediate. Whenever i checked my email box and found many issues awaiting for me to solve, I wud feel very stressed out and couldnt wait to clear all of them at one shot. To make the matter worse, I am now working with a larger number of ppl and i need their cooperation with good coordination. Many a times, ppl do not reply u immediately with full eagerness, and that further delay my job. Well, i just find the feeling of 'owing others' sux.

Back to poems, I think i am gradually getting to appreciate poetry and literature works. Tats quite surprising for myself cos i have always been classified (be it by myself or the singapore sch sys) to be a hardcore science and maths students, and nv been an art student. But ever since coming to NUS, my love for reading and writing grow, while my interest in mathematics and sci seemed to have stay stagnant.

Yday, i tried sharing a chinese tang poem to my ex-gf, who is currently pursuing her PhD in Engineering, NUS. Both of us were hardcore sci student and nv a fan of GP. When i asked her abt the poem, she told me she couldnt appreciate it. She also couldnt 'get' the metaphor tat the poet has used to describe his exasperation. Instead, she took it wholesale by translating the words literally - hence, she got no meaning out of it.

Our conclusion: She hasnt changed, but i have changed a great deal. She teased me that i used to be a very playful and crappy person in jc, always disturbing the gals and incurring their wraths. But now, she thot i have extremely serious, esp after reading the testimonials left by my frens at friendster. Together with another jc gal fren, they thought i am no longer the gordon they once knew. But crap, who doesn know the testimonials in friensters are all tooooo good to be true? Nobody wrote nasty stuffs, only nice and over-exaggerating strengths of everyone. Hahaha. .. Dun u often see this comment on ppls' testimonials " Oh, he is the best guy u can ever find on earth, the best catch, what r u gals waiting for?"

Well, the msg i wish to put across this evening is that i feel we have missed out so much in life. We have missed out the true beauty in life, which can be found within. The beauty of the nature, beauty of poetry and art, may never be identified or appreciated, if we dun use our hearts.