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After so long, I finally got myself back to attend the CMC weekly meditation sitting. I din usually like to stay back for the grp discussions, as I didnt find it beneficial. Instead, I sometimes got myself filled with undesirable thoughts by judging ppl negatively - he talk too much la, she trying too hard to impress ah, show off ah etc.

However, this evening sharing session was great. The topic was on ' Offering Dana & Gaining Merits'. I am particularly touched and impressed by Wee Seng and Fenny's sharings.

Wee Seng (quoted from Ajahn Chah) : A lot of ppl want to gain merits, without first working on getting rid of the undesirable qualities in them. Its just like wanting to dye a piece of dirty cloth.

Fenny: The idea of offering dana is to practice on letting go of of attachments. But many offer dana to gain more merits (be if for good or bad cause), leading to greed.

This topic has always been on my mind. We often think too much of the outcomes of our actions. Shld i offer dana to gain merits, so as to support a better rebirth? Or shld i do it only when i have true intention of offering and letting go? I actually seek advise from some venerables, on how I shld go about offering dana in the right way. Sharings by the brothers and sis at CMC further reinforced my personal conclusion: Just do it, xperience it yourself and then decide whether your actions are good or not good. Why bother to think so much?