The Ship & the Sheep

I kinda look forward to writing my blog every nite around this time. This is esp so when my day life has gotten so hectic, that nite time becomes a good time for me to recollect and find composure in myself.

I cant precisely explain the situation i am in now at work. Things got a bit out of hand as i got pretty helpless today, cos..

1) My upper study is not my actual upper study..
2) he is jus another victim tasked to temp take over the job within 3 days and then teach me...
3) Many urgent matters await for me to settle
4) I duno how to settle, he also duno how to settle
5) and yet the matters are super urgent
6) plus he is on MC today
7) I try to seek help from other snrs, they r helpful but too busy to help me
8) and emails (issues) kept pouring into my mailbox seeking my attn and soln
9) when i was still busy seeking soln for prob A, prob B came along, followed by C and D, all claiming to be super urgent.

The funny thing is i need to do a presentation today on something that i barely know. The most ridiculous thing is that my manager has expected me to do the presentation, and yet, he didnt really expect me to know the stuffs i was presenting cos he asked "oh, u know this already ah, you know that already ah?" .. damm funny, but i thot i gave a good and brave try, kinda fun. I guess NUS (esp engin fac ppl) have not much problem in formal presentations, cos tats practically wat we did in almost every sem.

Let me try giving an analogy to describe the situation i am in. My work is just like a super huge ship, and i am now standing so near to it that i m unable visualise how the entire ship looks like. I havent even know what are the various components and sections of the ship, but am straight away thrown into repairing and rectifying the faults in the various components. In other words, i dun even know where i am standing in the big picture ie. which parts of the ship i am now repairing and what their functions are. In the end, i decided to ask a snr to explain to me the entire big picture, so that i can always try to 'fit in' the issues i am handling into the big picture. In a way, everything becomes much clearer...

As my upper study wasnt here today (and not as if he surely can solve the issues), 2 other snrs whom i didn talk much to came forward to help me. One of them is really cool, as he kept telling me to 'relax and get used to it soon'. The interesting thing is these ppl do not have the standard solns themselves too, but worked together to seek the best soln to help solve my problems. Talk abt experiences and skills.... tats wat i hope to acquire.