I have no talent.....

I feel that I am getting back to my old sec sch days' behaviour. This evening, i was having dinner with my mom at Lavendar Food Square when she asked if i have any activities tonite. I told her NO, but i actually have a bbq session at ECP tonite. Upon realising that, she kinda insisted that i attend tonite's session and 'dun stay at home'. I duno what happened to me but i jus dun feel like going out much these days. Even if i go out, i prefer to go to some quieter places like MacRitchie/Kranji/Changi beach alone or with jus a couple of friends, much like my sec sch days' style. Its only in jc/army/uni that i become a more sociable animal....

In the end, i made my way to the very ulu part of ECP (near changi airport already) to meet up with my friends. Indeed, it has been quite sometime since i see some of them, and one of them commented that i seem to have gained quite a bit of bulk, thinking that i must have frequent the gym. But the truth is that i have put on weight, and under a v loose and big size T, i was able to cover my fats and making ppl think i am just 'bulky', haha. Heard that a few of them are getting married, and mostly are attached. Lots of job hops too. Other than that, we spent some time reminscing the old days, and tried to recall when and under wat circumstances/occassion did we met one another for the first time in NUS. It has been a good 5 yr.. but really it doesn seem tat long ago.

Back to the title of this topic, i gradually feel that i am really a person with no talent. Some ppl can skate so well, some can write very well, some can swim so fast, some can run v long, some have powerful vocals, some are so intellectual, some are born so pretty/handsome, some are so smart in studies, some possess superb soft skills... but i am more like a jack of all trades but master of nun. Its kinda an irony to my philosophy in life that i wanna be a medicore and not some outstanding personnel.

I think we all need a drive in life. Without a drive or an aim in life, we are jus like a living dead. So have u found yours?