No....

Jus got back from Changi Beach, enjoying the breezy nite with my ex colleague eating ice-cream. She passed me a chinese written letter, dated 24th May 2005 (the last day of my work at CDGE). In her letter she wrote this:

" You are not the only one that is unprepared and unable to accept tat today is your last day of work. Me too, also kept thinking that i will still be seeing you tommorow in the office, although we all knew long ago that today is ur last day." And bla bla bla.......

I duno how to respond to her letter, and i chose not to mention abt it even though i am NOW chatting with her msn. Guess when it comes to this type of thingie, i am quite helpless.

At my new work place, a few guy colleagues are starting to make fun of me with another gal. Tats becos i am one of the only 4 guys who are still unmarried among the 30 over guys in my dept. In fact among these 30 over guys, all except 2 are fathers already. And their average age is at most 30-32. Sometimes, i do feel the pressure to get myself attached and live like a 'normal' person. I also know how sweet and nice the feelings of being in love will be. But.........

Why shld i live a 'normal' life just becos everyone else is doing so? And how do we define 'normal' ? And arent all these sweet and nice feelings jus one side of the coin, with the other side as expectations, disappointments and attachments? Sometimes, the temptation can be great, and its a test on my faith , understanding and appreciation of life.