I have not been updating my blog as I am practically out every evening.

Last evening, I went to watch Brokeback Mountain with bean. Ever since i took up the module 'Film & History' in NUS, I started to try 'reading' a film instead of just watching it. I was trying to study hard what this movie or the director/author is trying to say. Unfortunately, I was unable to come out with a satisfying answer myself.

Despite the numerous good reviews + winning multiple awards, I couldnt quite appreciate the film. Many have commented how touched they were after the movie which sent their tears down controllably, but i wasnt touched at all. In fact, I could not even feel or sense the love existing between the 2 gay men. I only find the movie very draggy and boring. For the first time I hope to get out of the cinema fast and yearned for its ending.

But i knew the movie is more than meets the eye. I went home to surf the net for reviews. I feel ashamed of my own shallowness. As some reviews said it, its abt how the 2 men battled themselves against the conventions with the force of nature (their love). In fact, the film is not jus abt the 2 men, but also their wives and children. Really feel sorry for their wives .

I was v pissed with work today. I think i have broken my own record of maintaining my anger from morning all the way till evening. Fortunately I was able to cool myself off after skating to and fro the ECP. So i am actually feeling very shiok and light now. Poor emotional control.