I have to be Mindful

Today, I felt a sense of emptiness in me as my colleague has been away for a long leave. Almost everyday, she will visit me in my office which is situated very far away from hers (which is in another building). I have complained to her last time that I was very sian in my office as my room was very much isolated from the others. Thats probably why she made a point to drop by my office almost everyday for small chats.

Other than that, we would often communicate through MSN during office hrs on almost every issues under the sky. About 20% of the stuffs we communicated on the net are relevant work related stuffs, while the remaining comprises mainly complaints, gossips and outside stuffs.

I din realise her presence has become part of my working life until today. I have to admit that her absence has kinda created this 'missing' or 'emptiness' feeling in me today, even right now. I know whats coming up next and I hope I am not falling into any love trap again.

But interestingly enough, some of our colleauges have been making fun of her abt me, but so far none of them dared to try it on me. The reception gals situated directly outside my room must have witnessed her coming in and out of my room very often, haha. Sometimes, I found ourselves so pathetic that she has to smuggle tow-hueys and sandwiches using big envelops into my room to avoid gossips.

Well, there are always both fun and sorrowful parts of working life. She definitely belongs to the former, but well, like what Ajahn Brahm said last nite, there is no ever-lasting concert, even the best performance has to end somehow.