Seletar here i come~~

From Kranji reservoir a few months back, i went on to explore MacRitchie resvr few weeks ago, followed by the Upper and Lower Pierce Reservoirs 2 weeks ago. Today, I decided to make my way to visit the last 2 largest reservoirs found in Singapore Central Catchment area - Upper and Lower Seletar Reservoir.

The places i visited today:
1) Neo Tew Ave 3 (the other side of Kranji reservoir)
2) Kranji forests (where the major water pipe lines are)
3) Lim Chu Kang jetty
4) Lower Seletar reservoir/jetty
5) Upper Seletar reservoir


Started my day at Neo Tew ave 3 which is abt 20 min car ride deeper down from NTU. There was a gantry which stopped us from driving deeper, so we have to start walking.



Along the way there, we saw some huge water pipelines which carry water from the Kranji reservoir to the mainland.


Finally we reached the waters. Look at the clouds and sky! The clouds are so damm beautiful and the sky looks much 'cleaner' and 'healthier' compared with the skies we have in the urban cities. The kranji water side is so peaceful tat we cant find a single soul there.


We turned back and climbed up the giant pipelines which brought us deep into the forested grounds - not v easy to keep balanced though.


Very nice and peaceful scenery by my side as i walked along the giant piplines, accompanied by endless greeneries and bird chirpings. We also found a tree with at least 30 over nests built on it. My fren taught me how to differentiate betw nests that are meant for shelters and those meant for laying eggs and nuturing the offsprings.

And we ended our pipeline walk emerging out from a chicken farm, where the owner asked us what we wanted. V paisehly, we told her we wanna get out from the farm to our car, and she led us to the gate :D Our next destination was the Lim Chu Kang jetty which has a metal gate that only allows authorised fisherman to enter. My fren and I managed to sneak in successfully, but we found ourselves kena 'lock out' from outside - means we were stranded on the jetty and couldnt get back to mainland. Luckily, a fisherman came by and 'release' us from outside.


Lower Seletar Reservoir and the Seletar reservoir Jetty. Nothing magnificent, but simply a carefree and lazy place to chill out. So relaxing manz...


Final destination at Upper Seletar Reservoir. This rocket-look-a-like structure is the viewing tower. I think that it has a pretty modern look, considering the fact that it was built in the 1970s.


Views from the tower at different directions.


And i ended my day with a pair of torn sandles. Both pieces give way at the same time, with the side straps torn and soles coming off. Fortunately the design came with some strings which i use to tie them temporarily but firmly to my feet.

Nice places... i wanna visit them again.

National Library

In case you are wondering why I took pictures of these 2 carpark signboards, well, they are actually placed back to back (ie. mounted on the same pole). If you look carefully (sorry u have to squint ur eyes a little), the first one states the parking rate as "50cents per 1/2hr" in the evening, while the second one states 'free parking"!!! And these parking lots are merely separated by a small road divider.

I was v lucky to get a lot on the other side of the divider which states free parking. In fact, i knew this 'lobang' long ago but nv expect myself to be so heng yday. I was on my way to visit the newly opened National Library.

My first impression of the National Library wasnt good. Firstly, i dun really like reading books. Secondly, i find the place too crowded with ppl, esp kids, on the first 2 storeys. But as i made my way up, i began to appreciate the building more.



Well, i know there s nothing special abt the above pics, i jus took them out of fun from the highest storey. There were a few exhibits on the growth of Singapore too, which are very interesting. I was most fascinated by the photographs of old singapore, comparing the past and present of diff places like CityHall, Orchard etc. "Oh, this bare land was once where Suntec is sitting now?".

Overall, the new National Library is quite nice, esp the upper storeys. Can even see the NDP rehearsal from the large glass panels. Cool.. i may visit it more often in the near future.

学不会

你若是读不懂华文，那我非常抱歉。 或则你认为我的笔伐很烂，而切错别字非常地多，那我也很遗憾的想对你说，不好意识，我还是要用华文写完这一篇网上日记。大概是觉得用华文比较容易表达自己的内心。

总觉得我们始终‘ 学不会’ 。 说真的，也不知道是自己不肯学，还是真的学不会。 从前所犯过的错误，却一直不断地继续重返。哎哟。。。难道自己不会觉得厌倦吗？ 就算是自己不累，我们身旁的亲人朋友们也一定多少会对我们产生一些的反感及无奈。

从蹈覆辙。。。执迷不悟。。。那不是我们吗？ 明知故犯。。。咎由自取。。。 再来一个作贱自己。 唉。。。我自己就是个名副其实的'好例子’。 总是改不掉自己的坏习惯。

最可悲的是，当别人谴责我的时候， 我还生他们的气呢！真是要不得。。。再说下去令我不禁地感到惭愧。。。 应该好好自我检讨和反省一番。

Work , still abt work..

I am feeling quite perplexed now, over my work. I knew it! I shldnt have checked my work mails at home but i felt so tempted to. In the end, i saw some exchanges of emails between 2 parties in disagreement, and i am supposed to be the bridge between them to settle the issue. Argh, i am quite lost in how to deal with this 'special case' cos i cant simply follow the usual guidelines. I know where both parties are coming from, but i cant just sit on the fence.

The best is to consult my boss on the issue. Luckily he is back from China. Lets pray hard i can see him on monday morning. Sighz, tats the problem of being new to an organisation. I duno the processes well, and even if there isnt any existing process, i also lack the experience to come out with a good decision, less say how to deal with the diff parties.

And worst of all, I discover one super great weakeness i have, but unknown to me in the past, after i come to work at HP. I have super lousy listening skills - and i dun mean it in terms of attentiveness, but the ability to comprehen what the other party is saying. When i was talking to the ang mos, i blamed them on their strong american accent. When i conversed with Koreans and Japs, i complained abt their poor english. And when i communicate with the China ppl in MANDARIN, i found that i also have difficulties understanding them!!!! Arghh... am i really so weak in talking over the phones??? I really lost my confidence.

On the lighter note, i had a pretty interesting encounter during lunch time yday. When i first came to work abt 2 months back, i chose a seat next to this gentleman (someone i duno, and not from my dept). My new colleagues joined me shortly and the meal went on as usual. After that gentleman left, my colleagues began to ask me if that gentleman who has just left is my brother, cos we look v much alike. They thot i sat next to him on purpose, thinking he is my brother. I nv get to see that guy's face cos he left before my colleagues told me abt it.

Yday during lunch, they saw him again. I take a good look at this guy and i was caught in a little surprise. No... its not becos i think i look like him, but i find this gentleman very good looking and suave. Wahaha. . if only i really look like him manz. .

Can We Just Hug?

I really love reading blogs, esp those that were written right from the bottom of the heart. Definitely not those who blabbers a lot (something like mine), reporting mundane daily stuffs and posting self pics etc, HAHAHA.

I shall not state names, but i really really do enjoy reading some of your blog(s). Somehow, I feel that I can just relate to the writings, those sentences that were injected with real experiences and words that were tainted with true feelings.

I feel that blogs serve the best purpose when one is feeling down or melancholic. Esp when u feel v much like sharing your thoughts and yet u dun wanna find someone to speak to - blog is your best companion. Well, it does sound a v sad thing, that the society has now degenerated to this extent.

A NUSBSA snr was complaining that he doesn receive updates on NUSBS activities, cos the SMSes he sent out receive little or no reply from the existing members. When i told him that 'many' are online every evening on MSN, and he could have easily keep in touch with them via MSN, he responded by saying he 'doesn like' and he 'isnt into' MSN. Well, what can I say? Sometimes we have to keep up with times to get moving with life. And its jus a matter of where we draw the line between what are the things we 'need' and 'want'. But the position of this line can be so personal that it can nv come to a compromise.

I find the following quote pretty interesting, and somehow, i do feel that at times:

"Can we just hug? It doesn't have to mean anything."~Adapted from a line from 'Six Feet Under' (Stolen from Lemon cow's blog).

Battlezone @ Work

Learnt from the news that hooking onto other ppl's wireless network is an offence, known as 'Internet Hijack', even if the other party did not set on a password. I think i better stop doing that, but somehow, my IPAQ is set to auto connect to any available network by itself.

I like the first pic v much and it really appears v nice on my IPAQ as the wallpaper. The pic was taken by my nokia6230 at MacRitchie Reservoir. I may like my IPAQ, but i really love my 6230 much x 3 more. Its a magnificent piece of metal with all the wonderful and quality functions packed together. The next wallpaper is taken from the internet, which is often used as my wallpaper for my desktop and hp. My fave Buddha wallpaper.

This aftn, i described to my ex colleague on MSN tat my daily job is like fighting a war. In other words, entering my office in the morning is jus like entering a battlezone. Upon opening my email box, i will receive plenty of arrows shot over from the prev nite. Similarly, i will be shooting many arrows back to others. It will be endless shooting of emails over here and there, from Party A to Party B all the way to Party X, Y, Z...... During lunch time, the fights will cease, and resume at around 2pm.

The system works exactly like chain mails, except that you get to read how ppl defend themselves and throw the ball to the next party, instead of jus simple forwardings. Ehemz! I may be new to my current work, but definitely not new to siamming arrows. Sometimes i am really impressed by my own 'taichi' skills, haha, although i know its not really desirable.

Some of us may think : Argh, i dun like this and that, i dun like how this system works etc. But do we have the choice? If we always choose to do the things we like to do, and avoid the things we dun like to do, then our life wud be too 'ideal'. We might jus end up becoming very vulnerable to blows and challenges when things do not go according to our wishes and expectations.

Short short entry

Nowadays i have the habit of checking work emails from home... oh nooo........... I shldnt have brought work back home to do, but i have no choice. I am dealing with ppl from all over the world. My sleeping hrs = to their working hrs vice versa.

My mailbox can get filled up with 200++ mails per day, which is quite little compared to some snrs which can choked up to 600++ per day. I told myself not to check the mails at home, but v often i am too eager to check for replies or updates on certain urgent issues. As a result, i check them, and end up getting myself more busy and stress, with even more NEW issues. Arghh..

But i dun regret coming to HP. Life is a lot busier, but the lifestyle i get is more nourishing and nearer to what i want. Had a pretty long jog with a few colleagues at ECP jus now after work. The feeling of jogging by the sea is really great. Although we ran more than 5km, the distance seemed much shorter as compared with running on the tracks. But the sucky thingie is i got my breathing patterns all mixed up. Nose-in-mouth-out, mouth-in-mouth-out or nose-in-nose-out... Edward, care to give advice?

Wayfarers ....

I am now listening to the buddhist hymms by wayfarers. Whenever i feel gloomy and down, i wud listen to their songs, and somehow i wud feel even more gloomy, but the peace will come along.

I first heard the hymm "The Blessed Refuge" on the CNS2002 website. The chairperson of the camp is my old time fren, James. I know James cos we always took the same bus to sch early in the morning during our sec sch days, but we seldom spoke. We went to the same JC and ended up joining the same ECA. We din keep in contact during army, but met each other only when i came to NTUBS activities. Its such a coincidence that both of us have landed in the same ECA again, except for the fact tat he was in NTUBS while me in NUSBS.

O Suffering World is also one of my fave piece from the wayfarers. Yeah, the world is really full of sufferings. I remembered i once cried over my family matters during my jc days, and i was glad to have my gf then by my side. Now, i am feeling the similar exasperation + job stress, and i have no more gf to turn to to 'cry' my heart out. But tats not the 'function' of a gf, and i shldn possess someone jus becos i need her. When love becomes a 'need' in our life, we are just courting trouble.

Back to my job, its really tough and stressful. But i have been constantly told by my colleagues that the experiences gained will be rewarding. I dun hate my job, i dun have the sian feeling over it, i jus hope i could have been more knowledgeable, experienced, wise and 'zai' to perform my job well. Indeed, academic results have nothing much to do with project/issues management and ppl handling skills. I may have gotten a decent honours class, but i stand no where when it comes to surviving well in the society.

Blue blue bloo..

NOooo... those pics above were not taken today but last yr. But the photo taking session today brought me back to my PC folders and i began to browse thru the graduation photos i took last yr. I found these 2 pics particularly interesting and decided to upload them onto my blog this evening. I have yet received the pics we took today though.

The session today was pretty tiring, although the no. of pics we took were much less than last yr. I remembered the turnouts last yr was almost the same, but the session seemed to go on more smoothly, with every fresh grad having a 'Personal Assistant' to help carry their barang barangs, haha. This yr, many snrs and undergrads turned up, but the unfortunate fact is that many of the fresh grads themselves did not turn up. Its kinda disappointing cos the rest of us came all the way to sch just for them ... awwww....

Nvtheless, it was quite a fun day catching up with old frens from nusbs. It was rather puzzling to see that the ppl were more engrossed in chattings and catching ups, rather then taking pictures, haha. Many pics of diff combinations were taken, and I feel tat every picture has its own meaning, and adds on to our memories.

Next yr, when both my smallbros graduates i will bring along my gown along to take pic with them. (The 2 of u better make sure a session is arranged).



Parked my partner next to another partner. The other partner is milestone blue in colour, the original colour i wanted to buy initially. But i later changed my mind to black, and subsequently to red, and finally to blue. Milestone blue is cool, but i still prefer my blue manz.

Only a Buddhist Externally

I feel that i am only a buddhist 'externally'. In other words, there isnt much practising in progress. By attending some Dharma talks, reading v limited Dharma books, going for some regular meditation sittings, mixing around with buddhist friends etc, i am ONLY trying to make myself more 'buddhist'. But the heart remains the same.

I attended the NUSBSA comm meeting just now. It reminded me of my NUSBS comm days when we had 'endless' meeting sessions, which can drag from early morning to late evenings. Somehow, i kinda miss those feelings, where we could easily divert our topics from the agenda, only to realise we have digress too far. But i glad the meeting just now was pretty efficient and concise. We even have time to attend Ven Kai Zhao's Dharma talk this evening, and met up with my 'familiar' faces again ie. Sumantri, David, Teddy, Kin Song and many many more...

Learnt from Yuhan that Keepang has gone to Malaysia for a few weeks of short term ordination course. Sadhu to both brother and sister! Somehow, i feel that the life of a monk is not simply just meditating in the Dharma hall, reading sutras or discussing the Dharma ONLY. It tends to become pretty much like ascetism. But I have read and seen from some slide shows on how short term ordination course is conducted over at Ven Kaizhao's sch. I am really impressed.

But whats the use of talking so much? The NUSBSA comm was asking me for opinion what fresh grads like me are looking for and wanted most. My answer is definitely not 'Buddhism'. Most of us now shld be most concerned with our CAREER and making enough MONEY to feed our family and ourselves. Only a few lucky ones have strong financial support from their parents and elder siblings. Somehow, organising and attending buddhist activites do not become our priority in life - and thats very sad. Similarly, a few lucky ones (or diligent ones) are able to strike the balance, but its really v hard in Singapore.

Suddenly dun feel like writing cos my MSN keep flashing - trying to ignore them. Tmr will be meeting my jnrs to take grad photos. I hesitated for a while whether i shld bring my gown along. Afterall, i have already bought the gown so i shldnt waste it, and this batch of jnrs are my direct jnrs, so the feeling isnt too 'far' away. But my final decision is NOT to wear gown tmr, cos it will be very mafan, hot and stuffy.

I love Christians

Sound a bit contradicting and sensitive? Well, i realised my closest friends (as in frens outside BS) are mostly christians.

The v first closest friend i got in NUS is Adrian, who was of the same age and same course as my own real brother. In fact, my frens then know him more as my 'brother' than my own brother. He is a v caring and patient person, who has led (and still leading) many christian cell grps. He tried to preach to me a few times, but failed.

One of my closer gal friends, Jane, is also a Christian. I dun wanna write too much here cos i know she is reading my blog, hiak hiak hiakz. She doesn preach to me.

At present, 2 of my closest colleagues, BB and Tenry, are very staunch christians too. The former has been a leader himself in his church, teaching sunday classes, while the latter is super siao on in cell grps, mass prayers and stuffs like that. Both of them are my lunch and jogging kakis. While they are very active in their religious circles, they dun preach to me.

Finally, the last guy i wish to mention is Barry, a NUS course mate cum regular supper buddy. The pic was taken 1 hr ago at his house carpark, while he was excitedly playing MSN with my IPAQ. He couldnt believe that surfing the net and MSN is possible at his void deck/car park, wahahaha. Oh ya, he is a Christian too.

My present work place is dominated by Christians (abt 7 0%). But majority are really nice ppl. I think by attending their weekly sunday church service really help them in working well on their 'Morality' aspect.

Cruel

Life can be so cruel.

Some, if not most, must have heard of this very famous (or rather infamous) blogger X i a x u e. She has thousands of ppl reading her blog entries everyday, which comprised many photographs and interesting write ups. She also won some blogging award or whatever and appeared on the press a few times. However, I do find her very arrogant and her writings were very offensive at times. While she has many fans, there are also quite a handful of ppl who openly hates her.

I visited her blog this evening to find out tat her blog has been hacked. To make things worse, her email has been hacked too, with all her emails and blog entries gone. While i am never a fan of her, i do feel the pain for her. All her painstaking efforts done on her blog for the past 3 yrs were gone. Her personal/business emails were also gone. I remembered i nearly hit the roof when i have to reformat my PC. All my nus relevant docs and emails were gone. I cant imagine how she must have felt.

But in buddhism, we believe in karma. So perhaps tats the price to pay for offending ppl. There is this old folk's saying " zhuo ren aga aga jiu ho". Many old folk's sayings are really worth considering and be taken seriously.

Well, i am getting more appreciative of my IPAQ. Its something in between a hp and a notebook. Can be pretty useful to bring outdoors (with wLAN) to surf net, check mails etc.

New Entry to my family of gadget

As a notebook cum PDA engineer, i am expected to be very proficient in my company's product. As such, I decided to draw out an IPAQ out to study and play around with it.

Quite cool, I can surf web, email, MSN and even blog using this IPAQ. With the 'additional' wireless lan available at my home, this palmtop really comes in handy. I could surf the web at the same time watching tv in the living room. I can also lie down on my bed reading blogs while msning at the same time.

Although its a multi-functional haldheld device, the camera prowess is quite a disappointment. I think i am a bit 'slow' into getting in touch with the latest technology, and tats why i am still pretty blur and foreign to the PDA.

wLAN available in my room

My fren brought his laptop to my home last nite to learn some stuffs. To our surprise, his MSN popped out (indicating online) even though we din connect his laptop to my home LAN cable. We later found out that he has been 'accidentally' connected to some wireless LAN around my neighbourhood.

This evening, I decided to bring home my in-built wireless notebook to try out if it works too. Hey presto, it works! And to my surprise, there were abt 6-7 wireless LAN networks that are available in my room.

Well stealing is an offence. But i am doing it out of fun, rather than trying to take advantage of others, keke. Anyway, i have my own lan cables available at home, see no point in stealing ppl's networks. But really cool manz.

Pierce Resevoirs

After the interesting trekking i had yday, i decided to make my way back to visit the pair of Pierce Reservoirs today. While the Lower Pierce park is very accessible to the public, the Upper Pierce park is located right in the middle of the Central Catchment Area. I drove along the narrow and curvy Upper Thomson Road, piercing through the jungle, before finally reaching my destination after 10min from the main road.

While the Lower Pierce Park is beautiful, the Upper Pierce Park is splendid and magnificent. And there is this large patch of grass slope (see pic) that tempts ppl to lie down, relax while enjoying the scenery.

As a Singaporean, I feel quite ashamed to be oblivious of these wonderful places that are located right on my homeland. Fortunately i managed to 'discover' them now. They are really v good hideouts.

Saw a few anglers (right spelling?) by the bank fishing. Witnessed a scene whereby an indian retreive a big and fat catch that has unfortunately been hooked onto his fishing rod. The poor fish was struggling and jumping around, but despite its effort, it couldnt escape from its wretched life. I wonder what will the karma of these anglers be. I was reminded by a story: During Buddha's time, he sometimes feel headaches during meditation, even at his old age. This was a result of his old karma many lives before. During that life, he was a kid 'happily' enjoying hitting the heads of some fishes with a stone. And this karma was ripened even after he gained enlightenment (pls correct me if i am wrong).

On the other hand, i am very glad to see many young parents bringing their kids to the reservoir parks to enjoy the lazy sunday weekend. Engaging children in healthy outdoor activities is indeed much better than bringing them to town for shoppings, movies, or even watching tv or playing computer games at home. I could see many young children happily running around the grass patches, some fascinated by the turtles in the waters, some happily kite flying etc. Good choice u parents have made!

Superb Day

It was a superb and fufilling day for me. I spent my morning and early aftn half on trekking, and my evening on a wedding dinner.

Our trekking started off in the heavy rain. The 12 of us were wearing our poncho as we marched along the main road towards the 'entrance' of the catchment area, much to the puzzlement and amusement of the on-lookers and passer-bys.

I learnt from the organiser of this trekking that the Nature Society of Singapore wishes to keep all places of nature protected. As they do not want the public to visit and disturb these places, they have requested that all available maps, GPS plotted or not, to be taken down from the web. Hence, i wun be putting up any maps tat indicate the path/route we took today, although i am very tempted to do so.

Anyway, its quite coincidental that majority of the trekkers today are somehow related to NUS. There was this pair of twin sisters who work in NUS (one from HR, the other is a research assistant). There is also a NUS lecturer from HK. And the organiser of this trek was from NUS too... and of cos so am i. Generally, the trekking today was fairly easy but interesting. Initially, the rain did dampen our mood a little, but soon, we found it very interesting and fun to trek in our poncho in the rain. After the rain stopped, we took off our poncho, and found the jungle atmospheric conditions very cool and nice. It was just like an outdoor air-conditioned env. There were also many interesting sights of wild plants, insects and fishes.

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This evening, i attended the wedding dinner of my new colleague from HP. It took us a few days before we realised tat we used to know each other 9 yrs ago in our jc. She was a pretty 'hot' and popular gal then with several guys chasing her at the same. My sec sch friend finally won her heart, but she got transferred out to another jc after the first 3mths though.

The bridegroom today is also my friend, but not the same sec sch fren i mentioned earlier. He happened to be my bunk mate in the army, and i din even know they were together for the past 6-7 yrs. Its such a small world....... Met up with many familiar faces at the wedding dinner too. Ppl from my work place + ppl from my jc + army. It was as if a gathering for us at tonite's wedding dinner.

Pierce-ing through the Nature Reserves

I will be waking up early in the morning tmr around 6 plus, to prepare for my nature expedition. My colleague and I will be 'Pierce-ing' through the Central Catchment Nature Reserves of Singapore, along the Upper and Lower Pierce reservoirs.

By taking a look at the Singapore Map, one could only find 2 visible greenery patch on the entire island. One would be the Live Firing area at Tuas, while the 2nd one would be the Central Catchment Nature Reserves of Singapore, separating Thomson/AMK area from the Bk Panjang/Batok area --- Separating the Eastern/Central side of Singapore from the Western/Central side of Singapore. Thats why ppl who wish to travel from AMK to Bk Batok has to make a BIG detour from either the northern or southern part of singapore, when the direction physical distance between them is many times shorter.

When I was younger, I used to take a fancy on the Pierce reservoirs when looking at the map. But i have never been there in my life and it didn occur to me tat i will be visiting them one day. It sounds kinda silly, but tmr morning, i will park my car at Thomson, and take a cab down to Diary Farm road, and start my trekking from there all the way to Thomson road, so that i can collect my car and drive home directly after the trekking.

Pray hard tmr doesn rain, and no mishap happens.

I sux in friendships

I am feeling pretty light this evening, quite contrary to last evening. Tats becos the 'Tripitaka' of my workplace didnt chant much today and thus the Sun WuKong need not suffer from severe headaches.

Presently, majority of the Singaporeans are focussing on the NKF issue. I didnt know if i did the right thing, but i did encourage my colleagues to cancel their monthly contribution to NKF, and change it to other charity organisation. The NKF issue remined me of the law of karma. Whatever ball you threw out will eventually come and hit you back.

Read a fren's blog which is pretty melanocholic. Somehow, I could emphatise my friend in certain aspects, esp on the 'loss' of friendship. I used to be a proud guy. I thought i have found myself a very close friend whom we can understand each other left right upside down in almost all aspects. I even secretly laughed at others who have yet found themselves a 'good and close' friend whom they can call their own. Sometime later, i get aquainted with another friend and I thought i was so fortunate to have found a 2nd friend that i can regard as my 'soul mate'.

While i was feeling on top of the world, i lost both of them overnight, for whatever reasons, i dun really know till today. The feeling was sucky and terrible. You felt you were being robbed, being ripped and plundered. You were basically left with nothing by your soul.

I know it may sound silly, but somehow, the prev encounters have made me feel more skeptical in life, less trusting to ppl, and given me an 'in-built' fear of getting too close to ppl. It also reminded me of impermanance. The pains may be gone, but the scars will remain.

But life moves on. Its kinda tired to start all over again. Working in the new env has given me plenty of chances to befriend new ppl (yeah i do enjoy), but i really dun wish to get too close to anyone, be it guys or gals. I wish to be alone, independent and carefree.

Can u pls shut up?

I nv regard myself as a quiet person. I can be quite talkative at times, but still, i really cant stand noisy ppl. Its such an irony tat i used to complain abt having a personal office, lonely and boring. Now, i am working in an open concept office, with colleagues around me. But i simply cant stand the incessant complaints from this guy.

Firstly, he likes to announce to the entire world for the slightest achievement he made. Secondly, he like to repeatedly 'clarify' to the whole world tat he is MERELY helping me in my work cos i am new here, and he isnt supposed to do it. Thirdly, he kept setting deadlines for me to fufil, when he is NOT even my boss. I got this impression tat he is jus in a hurry to push and hand over everything to me. Damm...

Ppl who have worked with me wud know tat i NEVER like to push away responsibilities or work to others. In my philosophy, i ONLY like to help and KPO others' work, definitely not the other way round. But sometimes even if u wanna go into the war, u must get your ammunition ready with u. Right now, i dun even have sufficient ammunition with me and i am expected (by this guy) to enter the war. Tough luck, my manager is away for a 3-week overseas assignment.

Arguging, quarrelling and scolding ppl is my JOB back in CDGE, as i did those almost everyday. Really din wanna use my 'skill' at my new work place, but no choice, i somehow did it today as i need to defend and protect myself from getting deeper into the pit.

Really wish to find someone to thrash my feelings out this evening. Picked up the mic to sing at home, but duno why singing failed to work for me tonite. Fortunately a snr colleague came online on MSN and i spare no time into removing the sorrows off my chest to him. Thanks goodness.... he, jus like the other colleagues of mine, are able to understand my plight perfectly. I need not say more, they know the situation much better than me cos they have been working with him longer.

Brought my ear piece, metta chant, heart sutra and wayfarers song to work and listen, jus to avoid hearing his voice. Can u plsss shut up?

Abstain from bad-mouthing ppl

"Abstain from bad-mouthing ppl" is my msn nick for today, which sparked the interest of quite a number of frens on my msn list. The nick was put up to remind myself not to bad-mouth behind ppl, esp in my present working environment where many ppl are sitting around my side in the office.

MSN chat:

Weng says: so what's ur bad mouthing count for today? *GRIN*

Om says: 2

Om says: but on same person

Weng says: oh ok, so the count is still one, was going to say that ur reminder not really working


Well, i dun really know if my reminder works, apparently it didnt. But perhaps if i didnt put up this reminder, the count wud be 5 or 8 or even 10 over? Hahaa... Whatever the case, I am trying my best to curb myself from speaking ill of someone. Not tat i dun bad-mouth ppl in the past, in fact i did a lot, and tats precisely why i feel i shld stop it now.

Help! Really hope to learn from some frens who are very cool in their body and speech, even though they are not Buddhists.