A few years back, there were several news articles which mention that in Singapore, we can all afford to die, but we cant afford to fall sick. I guess I need not spell out the reasons why.
In 1999, i had a major abdominal operation. I think the bill was around $6K++ (operation bills + ward + follow-ups + x-rays + endoscopy). Fortunately, I was a NSF then and everything was paid by SAF. I didn feel the pinch at all. And just before I ORD, I went to NUS for my medical screening, and was found with heart murmur. I went back to my SAF medical doctor, who refered me to CMPB medical board, and was subsequently given a radiography appointment 2 weeks later. However, i was going to ORD in just 3 days' time, meaning I will no longer be a NSF during my radiography. I was told I wud be charged $200++ for the treatment. Of cos, I didnt proceed as i didnt wanna pay the $200++.
7 yrs later, I was hospitalized again for abdominal pains. I chose to stay in Ward B1, and the medical bills amounted to 2K ++. Fortunately, I was fully covered by my company medical insurance.
However, my dad was not as fortunate. He had a kidney stone removal operation few months back and his hosp bills was $6K+. When he was younger and richer, he was very supportive of his insurance agent friends and he bought at least 5 insurance policies from them. Now, he business has ended and he has very limited savings left. He tried to contact his friends to ask for insurance claims, but found out NONE of his policies could cover his medical bills. All the policies he has bought are Life Plans, Disabilities and Critical Illness. And kidney stone does not fall within any of the 32 critical illness. I could see the great disappointment on his face upon learning he has to fork out the 6K++ himself. I felt cheated too, and felt my dad was too trusting in the past and took up watever his friends offered him. (They earn the most from Life Plans i guess).
After my dad's incident, I felt the need to buy medical insurance that will cover my hospitalization bills. I applied at least 6-8 polices from different companies. Most of them did not offer me 'standard condition' polices but counter offered me with 'conditioned' polices instead - meaning my coverage will exclude my pre-existing conditions, even though it was 7 yrs ago and I have 3 very thorough X-ray/ultrasound/scan to show that I am perfectly healthy! Fortunately, 1 company accepted me fully - and its not a v good policy actually. But at least I know i need not worry abt any hefty hosp bills, like my dad's case.
Hence to all friends out there, pls go and get yourself a medical/hospital insurance policy while u r still healthy. Firstly, our company policy may not be able to cover us completely. Secondly, we will nv know when we r going to fall sick (i have seen many ppl who keep a v healthy lifestyle but still fall very sickly). Most imptly, once u have any medical history record, u will run into problems like me. You may not even be offered any policy. And if suay suay kena the situation like my dad, then will have to fork out a large sum of money to pay for the hosp bills. And most imptly, this medishield is paid using our CPF, not cash. Tats why i feel its a NEED to buy :D
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Monday, February 27, 2006
My day starts after 630pm


It seems tat my day started only after 630pm today, when i finally get to relax myself engaging in fun and recreational activities.
This evening, Kenny(lee) and I planned to knock off together (our office bldg is next to each other) and we drove our individual's vans back home for dinner (we live jus 1 street across each other). After which, we rushed to a very big grass field beside our house to fly his remote control aeroplane. We have to rush cos we wanna beat the sunset. And while we were fixing the plane halfway, Kenny's phone rang, and the call was from Kenny (lam). Hahaha... the 3 of us had a great time crapping over the phone.
After which, we went to ECP for our skating session - joined by his gf and mother. Nothing splendid abt the skating and flying of aeroplane, but i m pleased i could afford to do so much things after a day's work. Life is too short for us to slough ourselves in work. I m trying hard to seek a balance in life.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Look Alike III

After a series of look-a-like photos in my previous entries, I decided to continue posting pics of my frens whom i think resemble some TV artiste. This entry features Mr Simon and not-so-famous ex-TV actor Ryan Choo.
Mr simon, i have asked for your permission liao rite? Haha... There is also an ex-BS member (also a common friend of Simon) who resemble a Taiwan female singer. However, I dun think i am close enough to her, hence, not so appropriate to seek her permission to post her photo on my blog.
Any more look-a-likes? Someone claims she looks like Fann Wong + Faye Wong. Maybe i shld post her pics up here to compare, hahaha.
Credit Cards



I was once attending an external course at the Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, when the instructor did a short game to let us guess the total no. of credit cards the entire class was holding on. It turned out that the avg number held by each person was abt 4 cards.
Personally, I am a great fan of credit cards - for rebates and discounts of cos. Recently, these are my credit card activities:
Given up
1) HSBC Classic Visa Card - expired
2) HSBC Classic Mastercard - expired
3) Citibank Dividend Mastercard - upgraded
The HSBC card was a great deal as it gave me $50 credit upon application - unlimited to any purchase. I spent it on 2 meals- once with Jane (kena NUH next day), and another once with JY. Citibank Dividend Mastercard gave me 3% discount off my fuel purchase, and 2% off any dining purchase.
Taken up
1) UOB Singtel Visa Card
2) Citibank Platinum Master Card - Free upgrade by Citibank from my Dividend Mastercard
The UOB card gives many benefits to a singtel user - eg. earn points from monthly tel bills + free caller-id + 10% off any purchase at hello! store + waiver of start-up fee for new purchase. It also gives me $1 cash discount for any $30 spent on fuel. Citibank Plat card offers me 5% fuel + 2% dining + 2% supermarket REBATES.
Existing Cards
1) American Express - Corporate Card
2) Exxon Mobil Card - 3% off fuel purchase
Amex is more for business trips, while the Exxon Mobil card is getting redudant for me with the arrival of my Citibank Plat card, which gives me a better deal.
Haha, as a typical kiasu singaporean, I m always on a look out for the best lobang and greatest discounts. Esp on my fuel purchase, it really saves me a great deal of $$$. But the danger is - I feel less heart pain when paying my bills off my credit cards compared to using cash, meaning, i am in a danger to spend more.
Friday, February 24, 2006
We r not alike

After my earlier entry on '5566', there are about 4-5 friends who came asking me if the student-in-tie photo i posted was really me. *Alamaks* I thought thats pretty obvious.
Jane who knew me for so many yrs actually couldnt tell tat its not me. She thot thats my JC photo. Chunkit claimed 40% confidence that the pic was me. Kwek was certained it was my secondary sch photo.
To prove to you that we actually look rather different, i purposely selected a photo with the closest hairstyle and facial expression to show that the difference is still very significant. Now, its pretty obvious who has the star look and who hasnt? Probably only the mouth and dimples show some resemblance.
To further show that we do not look alike, let me present you my JC photo!!! (i was probably around mengzhe's age in the photo then). Hahaha, i was really very nerdy then. No choice, TJC... Even the gal on my left looks so much chioer nowadays.. i shall post her pic up someday after getting her permission, haha.

Thursday, February 23, 2006
Guess which is mine?

Can you guess which is my Partner? Well, I think its pretty obvious from the picture due to some extra installations (unique to my van) at the rear. Taken at my friend's workshop, I just spent another $100 on a Hurricane drop in filter ..... awww.. ouch...
Working life is so tough. Interpersonal skill is so important. As a student, we rely heavily on ourselves, probably need some luck in getting a good supervisor and good course mates to study with. But in working life, I realise we need a lot of handshakes and coordinations with ppl all over. I am sure it doesn only apply to my job.
Everyone's priority is different. Your top most priority may not be even appear on his list. Yet ppl expect u to urgently attend to their matters, which may be not be contributive or value adding to yourself. They only add on to your burden and take up a lot of your time.
But somehow, this makes the job more interesting, challenging and fun. Life is too short to worry abt such matter manz.. Enjoy.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006

After comparing his own photo with Hossan Leong's, zeathereal told me that there is actually someone else he has in mind, whom he feels they look more alike. He is none other than the person shown in this photograph - A/P Tong from NUS.
Well, for a moment i thought they share the same set of teeth/lips/mouth. Eyes and smiling expression also quite similar. But we shld all agree that this lecturer is more yandao than our zeathereal, isnt it? Wahahaha... I hope A/P Tong doesn mind his photo being posted here.
Enough craps.
This evening I went skating with Lena (evc) and Dave. We had a very slow and leisure skate to and fro Fort Rd. I really enjoy moving in the breeze.
Last evening I went to swim at NUS. And i realised with the alumni card, I can use the swimming pool and gym for free!!! Tmr i shall go jogging. Anybody wants to join me?
Monday, February 20, 2006
5566

As time passes by, more ppl began to say the same thing to me. Frankly speaking, I didnt think we look alike - probably becos most ppl wud not think he looks like someone else, not even his own brothers/father. Hence, i have been dismissing all the claims. It was not until one evening when I went home while my mum was watching tv. She quickly called for me and pointed to this guy on tv whom she felt look v much like me. Alamakz. .even my own mum thinks so.
Until recently, ppl are still saying the same thing to me. Ppl from my skaters grp, van clubs and even my own colleagues today. Instead of feeling honoured, I feel rather disgusting. Urgh.. why him?! I think the similarities lie in the dimples + big eyes.
But well, I feel the 2 following person look more alike, dun u think so? Hossan Leong and our very own Zeathereal aka Siling, hahahahaha....


I ve just returned from the wedding dinner of my distant cousin. And its like a massive gathering for all my paternal relatives ie. my granduncle, grandaunt, aunts, uncles, cousins, cousins' kids, parents' cousins, their kids etc. I admit I have to deliberately put in some efforts to smile and greet them - unlike sacredrose, who was extremely happy serving her relatives drinks and sincerely felt very happy to see them during CNY. Kakaka....
I have not been wearing shirts for quite sometime ever since i changed my job. I opened my cupboard to see that I have a whole chain of shirts of various colours (at least 10) from G2000 after this piece - blue, dark blue, cyan blue, dark brown, light brown, beige, black, white, yellow, green, dark purple, light purple, dark grey, light grey. I foresee that after the office shift and merger, i will be wearing back my formal wear again - cos i will be sharing office with ppl from sales & marketing.
The wedding dinner i went was at Orchid Country Club. Dun be mistakened by the pic that i enjoy the view of this golf course by the Seletar reservoir. I hate golf courses. They took away almost all the best natural spots u can find in singapore. All the central reservoirs are surrounded by golf courses. Even the ulu kranji area was not spared either. Darn... The rich rules this world.
Back to the wedding dinner. I find it too tiring for the married couple. I see the entire wedding dinner as a mega blockbuster not only put up by the family members, but also the relatives and guests. I seriously wonder how many ppl actually sincerely enjoy the wedding dinner. Its more like a 交待 from the married couple (and family) to all their friends and relatives.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Changi East 2

Eastern tip of Singapore

The route we took was plotted with the help of the iPAQ & GPRS System.

My Partner could only bring me this far.

But our target is to land our feet on that far-away ridge.

We found this long, narrow and curvy ridge which leads us to the middle of the sea.

Nice patterns on the sand created by the strong winds.

Seashells of various shapes & sizes are at great abundance on the beaches.




And my Partner deserves a good bath after a long and tough journey made.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Ghost Story (Old Tekong Sch)
It takes a second to notice a person, an 1hr to fall in love with the person, and one life time to forget this person. This sentence is definitely nothing new to everyone here. But i disagree with it. To me, it probably takes many many life's time to forget this person, esp when your karmic link with her/him is very strong.
爱是彩色糖衣包装却没营养的药药!药药! Perhaps the song writer of Zhang Shaohan also feels that Getting in Love is just like Licking Honey Off the Knife. Haha.
Nowadays, I am more open to share my blogs with my friends, especially after i told myself to avoid and reduce writing abt my reflections on buddhism. SOmetimes, i cant stand my own 'self righteousness'. Many a times, I find my own reflections very fake and not sincere. My blog entries for the moment will be focussing more on superficial ramblings, or reporting on incident(s) that was/were most impactful to my life for the day.
The most impactful incident for today wud be the sharing of a ghost website by Jimbean. I read a story on an old abandoned malay primary school in tekong, which is used to house visiting soldiers who come to the island for ATPs (rifle-shootings). Personally i have stayed in this old malay sch myself before. We wud leave the sch early in the morning at 5am to head for our shootings, and wud only return back late after midnight when our range ceased. Hence, my memory for this place is always in complete darkness - there is no electricity supply.
I remembered there was only 1 miserable toilet on a small hill top. To save time, i went to the back of the toilet which is facing a large patch of field, and use the taps there for bathing. As i was bathing, i saw a greenish object in the middle of the field. Initially, i thot its a dustbin. But upon 2nd thought, i wonder why on earth wud the govt wanna place a dustbin in the middle of the field of an old abandoned malay sch in tekong. I took a 2nd look and realise it looked more like a piece of cloth/rag hanging in the air. Perhaps its the laundry by some residence nearby. But wait... there was no one living there! Its an old abandoned malay sch! Freak.. in no time i felt a sense of icy spasms gushing down my spine. I knew at once what i saw. I quickly clad in my underwear, rushed down the hill and went back to my allocated classroom to sleep. I didnt think much.
The next day, one of my indian subordinate who has the 3rd eye told me wat he saw in the old tekong sch. He said there was this very old and ugly looking being, with big gorging eyes, long sharp teeth with body like a piece of rotten rag, lurking around. I knew its wat i saw - and also wat many other soldiers have seen as reported in the website.
The next evening, I went to sleep with my men in another classroom, as a snake was caught crawling over our body in our classroom the previous night. Nothing spooky on the 2nd night, but there were lots of soldiers complaining to me the next morning. Abt 50% of them could hear Qurans and children singing malay songs in the wee hrs, and also another 50% felt their nose being pinched during their sleep. But i was in neither of the 50%.
Years later, I was walking to fongseng with my extA neighbour when we chat abt this old malay school at tekong. He told me tat during one of his night's stay , he was walking with his buddy to the toilet on the hill top when he walked past this classroom (which was supposedly allocated to me yrs back then). He saw a man hanging on a rope by the ceiling, swinging gently around. He didnt react violently but quicly walked away. He later verified with his buddy who also saw the hanging man.
Haha, I wonder if i wud get to stay at this Old Tekong Sch in the future for my reservist. I really hope not. But its indeed a very interesting experience for me. Ah. .i think i am a big fan of ghost stories and movies. In fact, most of the movies i watched are horror ones eg. Juon1, Juon2, Ring1, Ring2, The Maid etc.
爱是彩色糖衣包装却没营养的药药!药药! Perhaps the song writer of Zhang Shaohan also feels that Getting in Love is just like Licking Honey Off the Knife. Haha.
Nowadays, I am more open to share my blogs with my friends, especially after i told myself to avoid and reduce writing abt my reflections on buddhism. SOmetimes, i cant stand my own 'self righteousness'. Many a times, I find my own reflections very fake and not sincere. My blog entries for the moment will be focussing more on superficial ramblings, or reporting on incident(s) that was/were most impactful to my life for the day.
The most impactful incident for today wud be the sharing of a ghost website by Jimbean. I read a story on an old abandoned malay primary school in tekong, which is used to house visiting soldiers who come to the island for ATPs (rifle-shootings). Personally i have stayed in this old malay sch myself before. We wud leave the sch early in the morning at 5am to head for our shootings, and wud only return back late after midnight when our range ceased. Hence, my memory for this place is always in complete darkness - there is no electricity supply.
I remembered there was only 1 miserable toilet on a small hill top. To save time, i went to the back of the toilet which is facing a large patch of field, and use the taps there for bathing. As i was bathing, i saw a greenish object in the middle of the field. Initially, i thot its a dustbin. But upon 2nd thought, i wonder why on earth wud the govt wanna place a dustbin in the middle of the field of an old abandoned malay sch in tekong. I took a 2nd look and realise it looked more like a piece of cloth/rag hanging in the air. Perhaps its the laundry by some residence nearby. But wait... there was no one living there! Its an old abandoned malay sch! Freak.. in no time i felt a sense of icy spasms gushing down my spine. I knew at once what i saw. I quickly clad in my underwear, rushed down the hill and went back to my allocated classroom to sleep. I didnt think much.
The next day, one of my indian subordinate who has the 3rd eye told me wat he saw in the old tekong sch. He said there was this very old and ugly looking being, with big gorging eyes, long sharp teeth with body like a piece of rotten rag, lurking around. I knew its wat i saw - and also wat many other soldiers have seen as reported in the website.
The next evening, I went to sleep with my men in another classroom, as a snake was caught crawling over our body in our classroom the previous night. Nothing spooky on the 2nd night, but there were lots of soldiers complaining to me the next morning. Abt 50% of them could hear Qurans and children singing malay songs in the wee hrs, and also another 50% felt their nose being pinched during their sleep. But i was in neither of the 50%.
Years later, I was walking to fongseng with my extA neighbour when we chat abt this old malay school at tekong. He told me tat during one of his night's stay , he was walking with his buddy to the toilet on the hill top when he walked past this classroom (which was supposedly allocated to me yrs back then). He saw a man hanging on a rope by the ceiling, swinging gently around. He didnt react violently but quicly walked away. He later verified with his buddy who also saw the hanging man.
Haha, I wonder if i wud get to stay at this Old Tekong Sch in the future for my reservist. I really hope not. But its indeed a very interesting experience for me. Ah. .i think i am a big fan of ghost stories and movies. In fact, most of the movies i watched are horror ones eg. Juon1, Juon2, Ring1, Ring2, The Maid etc.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Are u rushing for the V-day deadline?
It seems as if we havent gotten enough of deadlines to meet, be it u r a student or working adult. But now i see some guys r having this additional 'V-Day' deadline to meet ie. to find a gf by V day. According to PeaNuts, one of her colleagues even make a 2006 resolution to find a gf by V-day.
I remembered on the V-day in 2001, I had my tech-com lesson. Our tutor happened to be an old spinster and for whatever reason, a few of my classmates kena scolded by her. And it didnt help that this guy friend of mine was already in mild depression over the fact that he was still unable to find himself a gf at the age of 21. So we end up cursing our tutor that she must have felt miserable too on V day feeling lonely, haha.
V-day is supposed to be a very happy and joyous day for couples to celebrate. But i choose to see the negative side - its a day when opportunists slaughter you with exorbitant prices. Its a day when bfs get stressed with what to buy for their gfs. Its a day when some gals ponder if they will receive 'better' gifts or none at all. Its a day when office gals got upset when the flowers they receive are less beautiful than their colleague's. Its also a cruel day to remind those desperate singles that they are still single. Hence, its not uncommon to find many depressing and low-morale souls on V-day itself.
Frankly speaking, I DO NOT feel a single pinch tat i have no date on V day. But i do know a few of my guy friends feeling rather upset and depress that they are still single at this age. And i guess there r also some guys who try to make a KILL on V-day itself hoping to get themselves a gf, while others set themselves silly deadlines to find a gf by V-day.
Well, i duno wat to say. But its really quite silly to get yourself troubled with such stuffs. Meanwhile, I applause for those couples who do not get tricked by the commercialised world to have their V-day dinner planned at some expensive dinners.
I remembered on the V-day in 2001, I had my tech-com lesson. Our tutor happened to be an old spinster and for whatever reason, a few of my classmates kena scolded by her. And it didnt help that this guy friend of mine was already in mild depression over the fact that he was still unable to find himself a gf at the age of 21. So we end up cursing our tutor that she must have felt miserable too on V day feeling lonely, haha.
V-day is supposed to be a very happy and joyous day for couples to celebrate. But i choose to see the negative side - its a day when opportunists slaughter you with exorbitant prices. Its a day when bfs get stressed with what to buy for their gfs. Its a day when some gals ponder if they will receive 'better' gifts or none at all. Its a day when office gals got upset when the flowers they receive are less beautiful than their colleague's. Its also a cruel day to remind those desperate singles that they are still single. Hence, its not uncommon to find many depressing and low-morale souls on V-day itself.
Frankly speaking, I DO NOT feel a single pinch tat i have no date on V day. But i do know a few of my guy friends feeling rather upset and depress that they are still single at this age. And i guess there r also some guys who try to make a KILL on V-day itself hoping to get themselves a gf, while others set themselves silly deadlines to find a gf by V-day.
Well, i duno wat to say. But its really quite silly to get yourself troubled with such stuffs. Meanwhile, I applause for those couples who do not get tricked by the commercialised world to have their V-day dinner planned at some expensive dinners.
Monday, February 13, 2006
How I feel ...

Several friends have expressed interest in visiting the Changi East beaches after i showed them the pictures. Well, there r something i wish to say:
1) Do not ask me to jio you
I am getting a bit pissed, but pls do not ask me to jio u along when i visit these places of nature. Pardon me for being rude, but my ans to those who have asked me so was "Why should i ?" These places are supposed to be an escape for me. What i need is relaxation, not a playground. Why shld i jio u along?
2) You can ask me to bring you there though
However If you are really so keen and interested to visit these places, of cos you can ask me to bring you there. But PLEASE propose the date and time first, and i will definitely bring u there if i am free. Do not expect me to jio u along, unless u think u r special.
3) These places are not meant for the public
Another reason why i do not like to bring too many ppl to these 鸟不生蛋 places is because most of them are protected places in Singapore. Although there is no law or restriction stated, the govt has written to one of my friends asking him to remove details from his website on these places he visited. The govt does not wish to publicise these places for fear of damages by massive human activities.
4) Go only if you enjoy nature
Just like stepping into the monastery, I respect the nature and would appreciate minimal noise pollution from friends. Do not plunder the nature of its natural richess ie. pluck flowers, branches, catch fish (ouch!)
5) You need a car, and more...
Most imptly is you NEED a private transport. But motor transport can only bring you to a certain distance and limit, the rest are mostly covered by foot. You must be willing to get yourself dirty, and be prep to get some slight cuts and scratches along the way.
5) Its so special, cos its in Singapore!
I thank a couple of friends who tried to intro me to other nicer places outside Singapore. But the whole idea that makes me so interested in the exploration is because such places are found within Singapore! Admist the busy and urbanized city, these natural places become much more valuable, magnificent and 'sacred'. And u do not even need a passport to go there.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Changi East










Visited Changi East today. A very huge beach by the sea, hardly visited by any single soul. I nv expect to find such vast and wide beaches in Singapore - definitely much different from wat u can get at east coast park or siloso beach. Facing the south china sea, the waters are greener with the waves much stronger.
Unfortunately my iPAQ camera was set at a wrong mode (same as tat time i took my convo pics in NUS, damm). The pics shown here didnt do justice to the actual place ww went. Nevertheless, its definitely a place i will go again, before it gives way to constructions.
Also visit www.hpnature.blogspot.com and Changi East Gallery
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Hermit mode
I may be unknowingly getting myself into the hermit mode - a new term to me which was introduced by Nale this morning.
I do not know exactly why, but i gradually find myself getting very tired and sick of mixing around with people. As I have mentioned late last yr, my social circle took a mini explosion i suddenly get to know many grps of new friends. However, I stopped mixing with the skating gang as I dun myself as passionate as them in skating - they practically skate every night. Next, i began to reduce my meet ups with my van club friends, for i do not find the activities we engage in meaningful or constructive - more of wasting time toking cok and lim kopi.
For a few times, I have tried to cancel some pre-arranged gatherings/outings with my friends. I find myself giving reasons (or excuses) like : 1) we jus meet up not long ago, why meet up again so soon? 2) I dun think the rest are very keen, so cancel lah 3) why dun we focus more on organising the next meet up in june? I knew i am getting tired of meeting up with ppl, but i didnt know i was tat serious until i had a chat with nolittleway and nale this morning. I realise i dun even feel like meeting up with my buddhist friends.
So friends out there whom i have turned down your invitation to go out, i am very sorry. And friends who find me very nasty and rude or with no reply on msn, i am sorry too. I think i have totally lost control on how i shld react to ppl, or 'live' with ppl around me. I am getting very clueless what is the right or good (not say best) way to live with people. Its like every single small step i make, i will be stepping on ppl's tails.
Its the first time I am experiencing something like this, although nale and nolittleway told me many other ppl have experienced somethign similar, although for diff reasons. But still, its something v new to me, and i didnt quite like myself behaving like this. I din know why i become like that. It may not be a bad thing. But the more i fear of meeting up/chatting with ppl, the more i will force myself to do so. Thats another funny trait of me...
Nvtheless, my evening turned out to be better. I was walking peacefully down the very long airconditioned production line at my work place. My units have failed to work, feeling perplexed, i went over to chit chat with 2 of the operators. I enjoyed the session a lot, although its jus a rather short and simple chat. I learnt abt their background, homeground and work experiences. I find them very sincere and simple (not in the -ve sense) ppl.
I wonder if its just coincidence or what, my smallbro sent me a 'good night' sms. At this moment, it meant a lot to me :)
I do not know exactly why, but i gradually find myself getting very tired and sick of mixing around with people. As I have mentioned late last yr, my social circle took a mini explosion i suddenly get to know many grps of new friends. However, I stopped mixing with the skating gang as I dun myself as passionate as them in skating - they practically skate every night. Next, i began to reduce my meet ups with my van club friends, for i do not find the activities we engage in meaningful or constructive - more of wasting time toking cok and lim kopi.
For a few times, I have tried to cancel some pre-arranged gatherings/outings with my friends. I find myself giving reasons (or excuses) like : 1) we jus meet up not long ago, why meet up again so soon? 2) I dun think the rest are very keen, so cancel lah 3) why dun we focus more on organising the next meet up in june? I knew i am getting tired of meeting up with ppl, but i didnt know i was tat serious until i had a chat with nolittleway and nale this morning. I realise i dun even feel like meeting up with my buddhist friends.
So friends out there whom i have turned down your invitation to go out, i am very sorry. And friends who find me very nasty and rude or with no reply on msn, i am sorry too. I think i have totally lost control on how i shld react to ppl, or 'live' with ppl around me. I am getting very clueless what is the right or good (not say best) way to live with people. Its like every single small step i make, i will be stepping on ppl's tails.
Its the first time I am experiencing something like this, although nale and nolittleway told me many other ppl have experienced somethign similar, although for diff reasons. But still, its something v new to me, and i didnt quite like myself behaving like this. I din know why i become like that. It may not be a bad thing. But the more i fear of meeting up/chatting with ppl, the more i will force myself to do so. Thats another funny trait of me...
Nvtheless, my evening turned out to be better. I was walking peacefully down the very long airconditioned production line at my work place. My units have failed to work, feeling perplexed, i went over to chit chat with 2 of the operators. I enjoyed the session a lot, although its jus a rather short and simple chat. I learnt abt their background, homeground and work experiences. I find them very sincere and simple (not in the -ve sense) ppl.
I wonder if its just coincidence or what, my smallbro sent me a 'good night' sms. At this moment, it meant a lot to me :)
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
These few days I have been getting very aggressive on MSN. A few reasons:
1) Lack of cultivation and mind control
2) Touching on topics that i feel very strongly for
3) Chatting with ppl who like to paint too nice a picture on almost everything under the sky.
It seems that I always get myself most agitated when talking to ppl who like to belittle your problems, and counter them with optimistic views and hence, obscuring the underlying negative aspects. Eg1. If your pet dog dies, Ms Ideal will say : Its only a dog what! Life is impermanent. Dun get so attached! , instead of addressing to your emotions and concerns. I wudnt call these ppl 'optimistic' for i believe they do recognise and feel for their problems, jus tt they choose to present only their positive sides to you.
Recently I received a few smses appealing for blood platelets donations. Among them, one case is genuine while the other is way out-dated. And becos we normally share a common grp of frens, i get to receive this same 'out-dated' sms appeal many times within the same day. Hence, i get rather upset with this friend who never bother to check the validity of the appeal (by calling up the given number and check lah) before mass smsing around.
Ms Ideal told me: He is doing this with kind intention wat. He is jus being kind and helpful, you shldnt blame him. But well, she has failed to put herself in the shoes of the receipient, who may no longer need the donations. Cos once the chain msg starts, its not going to stop or die down easily. 1 send to 20, 20 send to 400 and so on. . thats why sometimes you may still see appeals back dated as early as 2-3 yrs ago. Can u imagine how miserable will the family/friend of the apellant feel, esp if she/he has already passed away some time ago, and these non-stop incoming helps are gonna cause more misery and anguish.
A few yrs ago, i received an email appeal for blood donation too for this NTU gal who was pretty sick. Unfortunately, no contact number was given except the sender's email. After verifying the validity of this case by emailing the originator, i began to help mass mailing the appeal to my friends. But somehow along the way, someone removed the email of the originator accidently or what, and the rest of the receipients began to interpret that the originator of the email was me. Hence, i received several number of emails from ppl who wished to offer their help. One of them is a reporter from press, who told me she is willing to publish the appeal on newspaper.
I was thus very thrilled and quickly searched for the contact of the originator. I finally got hold of her but to my disappointment, she told me she has received tooooooo many phone calls and smses that they have 'enough donors'. I could sense that she is getting very frustrated with many incoming calls everyday, from the way she ans my phone call.
So pls be kind! Validate the appeal first before you blindly mass mail/sms them around to your friends. The extra step you take may save much trouble for the family/friends.
1) Lack of cultivation and mind control
2) Touching on topics that i feel very strongly for
3) Chatting with ppl who like to paint too nice a picture on almost everything under the sky.
It seems that I always get myself most agitated when talking to ppl who like to belittle your problems, and counter them with optimistic views and hence, obscuring the underlying negative aspects. Eg1. If your pet dog dies, Ms Ideal will say : Its only a dog what! Life is impermanent. Dun get so attached! , instead of addressing to your emotions and concerns. I wudnt call these ppl 'optimistic' for i believe they do recognise and feel for their problems, jus tt they choose to present only their positive sides to you.
Recently I received a few smses appealing for blood platelets donations. Among them, one case is genuine while the other is way out-dated. And becos we normally share a common grp of frens, i get to receive this same 'out-dated' sms appeal many times within the same day. Hence, i get rather upset with this friend who never bother to check the validity of the appeal (by calling up the given number and check lah) before mass smsing around.
Ms Ideal told me: He is doing this with kind intention wat. He is jus being kind and helpful, you shldnt blame him. But well, she has failed to put herself in the shoes of the receipient, who may no longer need the donations. Cos once the chain msg starts, its not going to stop or die down easily. 1 send to 20, 20 send to 400 and so on. . thats why sometimes you may still see appeals back dated as early as 2-3 yrs ago. Can u imagine how miserable will the family/friend of the apellant feel, esp if she/he has already passed away some time ago, and these non-stop incoming helps are gonna cause more misery and anguish.
A few yrs ago, i received an email appeal for blood donation too for this NTU gal who was pretty sick. Unfortunately, no contact number was given except the sender's email. After verifying the validity of this case by emailing the originator, i began to help mass mailing the appeal to my friends. But somehow along the way, someone removed the email of the originator accidently or what, and the rest of the receipients began to interpret that the originator of the email was me. Hence, i received several number of emails from ppl who wished to offer their help. One of them is a reporter from press, who told me she is willing to publish the appeal on newspaper.
I was thus very thrilled and quickly searched for the contact of the originator. I finally got hold of her but to my disappointment, she told me she has received tooooooo many phone calls and smses that they have 'enough donors'. I could sense that she is getting very frustrated with many incoming calls everyday, from the way she ans my phone call.
So pls be kind! Validate the appeal first before you blindly mass mail/sms them around to your friends. The extra step you take may save much trouble for the family/friends.
Monday, February 06, 2006
More pics from last weekend



Sunday, February 05, 2006
Very packed weekend



1) Friday evening: My army gathering at Sakura Buffet. This is one grp of friends that I treasure a lot. We recalled some very nerve-wrecking and critical situations that we have experienced and overcome together. Perhaps when i am more free next time i shall write them down in my blog. These incidents were really very interesting and they strengthen the bonds between us.
2) Saturday afternoon: Went to ECP and then KTV to celebrate Carol and Meiling's bdays. These 2 gals have grown into blossom friends after knowing each other in NUSBS 4yrs ago. They have supported each other very much in their life.
3) Saturday evening: Was MSNing each other with Jane at Suntec city using MCD's internet access with 2 iPAQs. Quite boliao rite? I even took a pic of her surfing her own blog, haha. And we ended up fixing up some iPAQs in vain at NUS EA outside LT7A, hahaha.
4) Sunday morning: Went to Alice's house for CNY reunion steamboat lunch with the entire FOC2006 gang. This gang is always super efficient in organising gatherings outings. We have planned our next outing at ZOO on 10th March.
5) Saturday evening: Met up with the 24th MC for dinner in town. I was actually very tired but the gathering turned out to be very fun. I always think the 24th MC is a grp of very mild and gentle lot. Almost everyone is very calm and gentle except for myself.
Akaaaa... in case u think wat... the picture is jus for fun ah... hahahaha
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Poh Ern Sih


I am pretty fortunate to get connected with this Buddhist friend who is a volunteer at Poh Ern Sih. Thanks to Jimbean for introducing him to me. This buddhist friend has created a new website for Poh Ern Sih: http://www.pohernshih.org
In case some of you have forgotten about this temple, this was the place where we had our MC retreats conducted. I remembered Kin Song's MC retreat was conducted there too. Its a very nice temple located on top off a hill near NUS. Unfortunately, the authentic building structures u see in the pics may no longer in existence. They have been pulled down to make way for the new buildings.
I believed many of us are subscribed to the temple's mailing list via snail mail. If you would like to help the temple save postage fees by unscribing from the snail mail (and of cos refer to the website for activity updates instead), pls msn me so that i can put up the removal request together. The temple needs funds for the new building constructions.
Feeling great connected with the Dharma.
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